feeling extremely unhinged about things it is not appropriate to feel this kind or degree of feeling about but as we all know being able to identify feelings as disproportionate or disordered or diswhateverelse does not in fact come with the ability to reorient their objects or turn down their volume so here we are simply feeling unhinged
#when i first moved to philadelphia it was the first time i had ever lived alone#and there were a ton of things i was not counting on not knowing how to do on my own#i mean practically; i had just always had a flatmate/housemate around for any two-man jobs that came along#so i would find myself in the middle of something precarious before realizing i couldn't do it on my own#including the hanging of an actual door. i stood there holding a door in a position from which i could not easily put it down again#while also not being able to secure it on its track#just standing there unable to proceed and unable to reverse course and holding a whole door in my hands#i am small and was smaller and that door was quite large and quite heavy; it was funny. but the point is#that is what this feels like#unhinged as in i am standing here holding this door until something else happens#(what happened with the door? i never managed to hang it properly and it just leaned against its jamb for eight years#executive dysfunction at work!)#comprehensive crazy tag