flashfiction: home and away
title: home and away
pairing: sasusaku
summary: in their language, the notion of ‘home’ was something beyond borders or buildings.
notes: i have a lot of feelings about the concept of “home” as it is spoken about in tagalog.
“i met a man once,” sasuke said to her, in the aftermath of a moon spent in love. “he approached me when I was traveling through a small village in the mountains of rain country. he said he had never seen eyes like mine.“
"and what did you say,” sakura said, tracing promises into his skin with the heat of her small, slim fingers.
“i told him he was lucky,” sasuke replied. “he laughed and asked if he could draw them — me, and we got to talking. he was one of the only few people i could understand in that village and he had time enough to assist me as a translator. it wasn’t a very big settlement, but the people there were kind, and they shared what they harvested with travelers who were fortunate enough to cross their gates."
"i see,” sakura murmured. there was more to his story, she knew, and so, she kept silent. sasuke was being strangely talkative tonight.
“when i was leaving, he told me that in their language, the notion of ‘home’ was something beyond borders or buildings. they’re a far-flung people, you see — many of them leave that village and migrate to different places to provide for their families, or to attain a better quality of life. but no matter where they lay their heads at night, 'home’ is fixed to that point, to those village gates. and since their village is so tightly-knit, everyone knows everyone.”
he drew in a slow solemn breath. sakura watched as he took her hand in his, as their fingers came so close together that only a breath of air separated them.
“in their language, there is a word for ‘house,’ there is a word for ‘country,’ there is a word for home — several words for ‘home,’” he amended. “but there is a specific word for the village from which they all come. when two people from this village—people who have long since left it—people who might now wear different clothes and eat different food, and—in certain cases—have different names, come together to reminisce, they use only one particular word when speaking of this village. and as soon as one or the other mentions it in conversation, it is a signal — 'ah yes, there.’”
“sasuke-kun…” but he slipped a finger against her lips and sakura stopped, transfixed by the steady gaze which had so arrested her, decades, eons, lives ago.
"i am of not them,” sasuke said quietly, as he allowed their hands to touch again. “but i know what it is to have a singular, fixed, concept of home — to have a word that belongs to a group peopled only by me, that grounds me, that reminds me that any place where i lie down to rest alone is only temporary…because i’m without—without…”
her eyes stung; after these months married to him, she knew how to complete his thought. sakura bit her lip and turned away. he had only been home four hours, and here she was, unraveled, undone.
“what a cake i am,” she whispered, as she turned in his arms, as she gave him her back. “weeping over something so small — you overestimate me, sasuke-kun, to speak so sweetly and expect me to face you with any sort of dignity.”
he kissed the nape of her neck.
“so don’t. rest easy. know that i’m home.”