#lmao this has been in my drafts for like six months and i was like wow i really vibe with these tags

I know that I’m afflicted But who could have predicted The monster that I’ve become

#UGHHHHH#screaming crying throwing up etc#eliot knows that he’ll always tell them the truth. tell her the truth.#he also feels deep in his bones that the words he will say will change her (their) view of him forever#see him differently. not the same. see him as a monster#and these are the people he cares about. the people he loves#and they accept him gruffness and prickliness and all. every part of him they love unconditionally#but this? this would be the thing that breaks the camels back#this would be something he couldn’t return from. because even if they still accepted him. still loved him. they’d still /know/#they’d know the worst things about himself and he can’t handle that#these people see him as flawed. yes. but inherently good#someone who cares and cares for and helps others. who loves deeply. who would they see when they look at him if they knew?#he can’t handle it#so he begs. please don’t ask me that. please.#OP IM TOTALLY NORMAL ABOUT THIS I PROMISE via @leverage-ot3