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still cannot believe.

it’s not the end, I’ll see your face again

forever in my heart

the world is heartbreaking every day and the world is beautiful every day and we have to pay attention to both

In another universe the boys weren’t overworked, in another universe the boys were protected from older women and the media. in another universe maybe zayn stayed. in another universe the boys reconciled. in another universe they remained brothers until they were old and gray. in another universe liam recovered and found peace.

THEY!!!! WERE!!!!! JUST !!!!! FIVE !!!!!!! TERRIBLE !!!!! DANCERS!!!!! WHO!!!!!!!! DESERVED!!!!!!! THE !!!!!!! WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

girlhood is sitting in the dark in the middle of the night crying to 1D songs.

god my heart hurts . it hurts so much

not to be fake deep but one direction is the greatest band in the history of the world

one direction will always be so so so bittersweet to me like they were such a foundation of my teenage years while at the same time those boys were spending most of their days trapped in hotel rooms or waking up at 2 am to record an album and non stop touring and working so much more than anyone let alone a bunch of teenage boys should work and its always been hard to reconcile those two realities especially on a day like today because god when they were good together, they were so good together.

and i just don't think anything like them will ever happen again. 5 boys from basically working class backgrounds thrust into a level of fame the height of which hadn't been seen for decades, all of them becoming the breadwinners of their families before the age of 18. the immense pressure but also the amount of fun they were. the tragedy and joy of it all intertwined. really impossible to put into words

seeing all these memorials and it still doesn't seem real that he's gone. it's odd because he's not someone we saw everyday or even ever physically. but there was always this reassurance that he was alive out there somewhere doing something. we'd see him through our phones from time to time but he was there. and now he's just not. we'll never see him grow, get better, see him grow old, live his life, there'll be no more music and no more liam in our phones popping up somewhere in the world. and it just feels so unbelievable. that he's gone. that he's really gone.

seeing so many people who haven’t been here for a while . we’re all family and will always be . what we got to experience is rare and precious . hope time will allow us to look back at it with joy and peace again . hugging all of you tight

The boys' statement over Liam's passing via 1D's instagram - 17.10