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My writing, books, thoughts, and also my adorable dog Oz. Possibly serial fiction at some point.
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By the way, conservatives and right wingers and fascists, they all know this. They know that when their children read these types of books they become interested in the world around them, and question everything--including their parents and other people with right wing views.

The real objection has always been against kids learning the forbidden skill of media literacy.

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madlori

This is a very interesting article but it's laughable to present it as a counterargument to banning books. "But these books are GOOD, they turn the kids into happier, more aware, more questioning people!"

THAT'S WHY THEY WANT THEM BANNED.

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leebrontide

You are allowed to not enjoy fanfiction terminology being the primary mode of communicating about original works, but you need to make sure you’re not actually complaining about terms originally coming from romance novel marketing, which has been tropey for about as long as I’ve been fully literate. Romance and mystery genres thrive on diloguge with their genre expectations on a way I think a lot of people ignore or don’t realize.

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dduane
Going forward, the new Chumash Heritage National Marine Sanctuary will be managed in partnership with tribes and Indigenous groups in the area, who will advise the federal government. It marks a growing movement under the Biden administration to give tribes a say over the lands and waters that were taken from them. “We’re still here, and so are the Indigenous people wherever you live,” says Violet Sage Walker, chairwoman of the Northern Chumash Tribal Council, who led the campaign for the sanctuary. “Being able to address climate change, use traditional ecological knowledge, and participate in co-management is Indigenous peoples’ contribution to saving the planet.”
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cobragardens

Ok but you need to understand that if your business has shareholders, this is literally illegal.

In the U.S. it is federal law that a business must do everything within its power--including environmental damage and worker exploitation--to maximize investor profits every year, or those shareholders are entitled to sue the business and it will be dismantled to pay what they are legally owed.

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calcinator

Shareholders have too many rights.

The system needs to be overhauled massively, but shareholders should be able to sue for less and should be able to be sued (and prosecuted) for more.

You want to invest? Fine. That's what you're doing, and that's all you're doing. If you don't like the business's plans or how they handle their money, you sell your stock and go someplace else. You take the dividend payout you're given, and you're the last person in line when handing out money.

Your investment doesn't work out? That's what gambling is. Better luck next time.

We also need a law that says that if a company is convicted of a crime, it's board of directors and CEO are automatically guilty of committing that crime via conspiracy, and subject to the "for humans" laws rather than the "for companies."

That means if Wal-Mart steals millions in worker wages, the CEOs and Board are prosecuted as if they'd robbed a bank of that same amount. If Hobby-Lobby smuggles artifacts, the people at the top are prosecuted as smugglers and thieves. If a company dumps toxic waste into a river against regulations, well, if any individual human did it, we'd call them a terrorist.

And we need a law that makes it so that companies that settle with the government cannot admit "no wrongdoing".

This is also why enshittification begins almost immediately when a startup goes public.

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camelidae

You are strongly advised not to feed the ducks in this pond.

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relthebell

My grandmother once told me a story of the kelpie, of how it would appear and entice children to ride on its back and then take them away to its lake and drown them. But, the story went, it did not do this because it was evil, because it hated humans, nor because it ate them.

No, she took these children because hers had died. She did not understand that human children drowned, that they couldn't live underwater with her. She just wanted a child, but hers was gone, so now she has to steal one.

The kelpie, or nøkken, is often as not a tragic figure in Scandinavian folklore.

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cipher-fresh

I must not mock Gen Alpha. Mocking Gen Alpha is the mind killer. Mocking Gen Alpha is the little-death that brings total generational solidarity obliteration. I will engage with Gen Alpha lovingly. I will permit them to be cringe. And when they grow up I will turn my eye to their accomplishments. Where mocking has gone there will be nothing. Only generational solidarity remains

The Kids are indeed Alright.

We must teach them the Lore of things,

like piracy, and how to find stuff at the Library, and Unions, and what it's not legal for job applications to ask you.

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weaselle

when i hear complaints about the boomers, i say "was it not boomers getting shot by cops while protesting against the war in vietnam? Were not boomers the ones who insisted that banks would no longer require a cosign from a husband or father for a woman to open an account or have a credit card? Did they not literally take us to the moon?"

When i hear complaints about gen x i say " did not gen x bear the brunt of AIDS and the creation of the 'inner city'? wasn't it gen-x marching for queer rights and women's body autonomy and a change in corrupt banking policies in some of the largest protests in the country's history?"

when i hear complaints about millennials, i say "have not millennials fought against and lived through so many 'once in a generation' disasters they should by all rights have given up by now? Are not millennials those who rally against the status quo? the industry killers, the cop protesters, they who live through unending hardship as the economic noose tightens, leading the charge for sustainability and socio-economic reform?"

when i hear complaints about gen-z i say "hasn't gen-z gotten involved younger, and been involved stronger, in the continuance of these noble traditions? Are they not living without even the broken pieces of the promise given to the generations that came before? haven't they had their childhoods derailed by the imminence of consequences for actions they were never even present for?"

when i hear complaints about generation alpha i say "HOW DARE YOU. How dare you malign these souls who will have to fix so much that they did not have a hand in ruining... or else die of these mistakes made before they were born. How dare you do the work of our shared oppressors and alienate our fresh blood. You are not to mistreat and mock the youngest soldiers in this fight, no! you point out to them the best targets, you share your rations, you show them how to stay alive, because anyone in the trenches with us is our brethren, our sistren. Our safety and our strength."

don't let the worst kind of stand up comedian tell you other generations are terrible. Don't let the worst kind of headline convince you each generation is against the other. Don't let the worst kind of oppressive force keep us divided along lines that mean nothing real. Because that is how they win.

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Hi! Would you ever consider doing that spirited TED talk about why Lovecraft now appeals specifically to the marginalized people he hated? I'm trying to make sense of it myself and it would really help to hear your informed opinion!! Sorry if you have already written about it or if it's maybe too personal! Hope you guys are doing well during the lockdown :)

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Yeah, sure.

Lovecraft’s work deals intimately with the pain and fear associated with feeling alienated from your community, your ancestors, and even yourself. 

A lot of his stories are about how there is something ‘different,’ about you or the people around you, that fills you with unease, but is also difficult to define. Your family feels malevolent to you; you feel like everyone in your small town is watching you, or has bad intentions towards you; you know that there’s something that just isn’t RIGHT about yourself. 

Your community might want to force you into a religion, or even a partnership, that seems unspeakable to you, and which fills you with horror.

Sound familiar?

These themes are relatable to LGBT people, to disabled people, to non-neurotypical people, to biracial people, or to people of color who are being raised in communities in which they are an overwhelming minority.

The Shadow Over Innsmouth is probably Lovecraft’s most famous story. It’s about being trapped in a small town where everyone is a part of a terrifying religion that personally hates you, everyone is being forced into horrifying heterosexual couplings of in which one of the partners is a literal monster, for the purpose of breeding, and in which the protagonist survives, escapes, and the government bluntly condemns his tormentors.

As a gay little kid growing up in conservative Maine, this was big for me.

In the end, the narrator of Shadow Over Innsmouth realizes he’s descended from the cultists of this town, and that he is becoming the thing he previously hated and feared. I also was afraid of never getting out of my town, and one day turning into someone just like the people who made my life miserable. To me, it read like a horrible cautionary tale: get out, and don’t look back. What’s going on here is wrong, and you need to pull yourself away, before the pressures of your family & community turn you into one of them.

But that’s The Shadow Over Innsmouth: a story which features alien miscegenation, sure, but not usually one of the stories that gets specifically called out when people talk abot how racist Lovecraft was.

The White Ape is probably the most racist thing Lovecraft ever wrote (also titled Facts Concerning the Late Arthur Jermyn and His Family). It’s about a man who goes to Africa, falls in love with an ape, successfully reproduces with it, and then all of his descendants are criminals and madmen, with unpleasant, twisted appearances. It’s told from the POV of one of his more distant descendants, who uncovers this information while researching his own geneology, and, upon discovering that there’s an ape in his lineage, commits suicide by dousing himself in lighter fluid and setting himself on fire.

Yikes.

And yet...this story speaks to me, too. There’s a history of serious alcoholism in my family. My mother was an alcoholic. I asked questions: her father was an alcoholic, and suffered from hallucinations as well. His father was also an alcoholic, and he beat his wife and children savagely. And his parents? I don’t know. No one was ever willing to talk to me about it. But every generation I looked back, there was more abuse, more mental illness, more violence. 

The idea that, if I could look back far enough, I could discover a progenitor that had poisoned our entire family was something I dwelled on, as a kid. Would I want to know the truth? Would it make any difference? Would I have some kind of crisis if I found out that I was a descendant of a rapist, or a murderer? How would I react if I learned that I was a part of a cycle of violence and substance abuse that no one before me had managed to escape?

The White Ape is super, super racist, obviously, but it’s not just racist. Taken another way, it’s a story about dysfunction being passed down within a family. It’s a sins-of-the-father story. And if you come from an abusive home, that’s compelling.

Look, Lovecraft was a mega racist. He was also a man who struggled with mental illness his entire life, who had watched both of his parents die in mental asylums, and who never found success in his life. He was afraid all the time, and he wrote about how frightening the world was to him, and how he never felt like he was truly a part of it. 

The racism sucks. 

The rest of it, if you’re a person who has been mistreated or marginalized, can really resonate.

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wizzard890

The feeling that there is something, somehow, cut-into-your-very-bones wrong with you. The constant fear of being found out. The heads of people turning as you pass, filling you with the certainty that they may somehow see you as you don’t want to be revealed. And if you were acted upon, by the universe, would anyone care? Would anyone listen to you or help? Is there even a somewhere to run?

Lovecraft’s characters live in this terrible state of fear. The man himself, racist and shockingly, often bewilderingly bigoted, lived his life in a similar state. One does not excuse the other, nor can you pick Lovecraft’s fears apart from the stories he wrote. But so many of the terrors that run under his work are ones that marginalized people know all too well, and there is a painful sort of meaning, of recognition, in that. 

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roach-works

fearful people often end up bigoted because it’s very hard, when you’re very scared, to interrogate whether or not anything you’re told is a threat is in fact actually that bad. you’re already scared. people who tell you how to navigate a frightening world full of obscure and complex dangers become trusted very quickly, because it’s such a relief to hear someone validate your own anxiety. you see people get very bigoted, very fast, when they get sucked into cults, scams, and populist movements, all of which meet in the middle, and all of which use fear to control their victims.

lovecraft was notably racist even for the time he was in. his contemporaries remark on it. but look at q-anons and terfs and antis and neo-nazis today. it’s not about education, stupidity, hatred, lack of opportunity to know any better, mental illness-- it’s just fear. fear is at the heart of everything they do, the kind of fear that makes you stupid, and violent, and insular. the kind of fear that makes you see monsters everywhere. lovecraft wasn’t afraid because he was racist. he was racist because he was afraid.

and stories about fear, about what we’re afraid of, and why, and if the fear is worse than what we’re afraid of, or if there really is something out there that’s coming to get us, and how that fear makes us stupid more often than it makes us smart, and what we do to each other out of fear, the lengths we go to, the ways we lose our humanity or deny it of others.... of course that’s good horror. that’s what horror IS.

Though I will strongly argue that his stories ARE also about mental illness and about being made other and monstrous by it, but also about surviving it.

Like the way that he's racist as shit do not get me wrong, Lovecraft is ablist as shit. The Music of Erich Zahn is this wonderful weird stew, right: it's this mess of lateral violence and connection, of the narrator being a patronizing ablist little shit to this mute violinist but also because of their shared mental illness (which he discusses explicitly, albeit in period-normal language as "nervous" disorders or "temperament" or whatever) or what he assumes is; the looming spectre of any Lovecraft story is "madness", this undifferentiated mass of "losing your mind", and it's both fundamentally, throughout the mythos, ablist as shit and also so clearly coming From The Inside, from this fear and this awareness and this experience.

The internalised ablist self-loathing in, eg, The Statement of Randolph is amazing; the way in which that underpins and fundamentally structures his relationship with Harley Warren and with how things unfold. And I think that is another element, as well: his narrators are often weak, often deeply fucked up, afraid, they freeze, they panic, they make stupid choices, they go crazy.

One of my things as a mentally ill person is that I need the word "crazy"* because I need something to describe the times (universally negative) when the inside of my head is a sharp-edged pit of knives divorced from reality that is not touched by "irrational" or whatever the fuck softer, kinder, more appropriate word you can come up with. And Lovecraft also captures that. He captures living with that, struggling with that; he also captures watching someone you love struggle with it (and succumb to it) in astonishingly accurate form, especially for what people did, in fact, deal with in terms of "treatment" from his era.

And he captures coming out the other side of it: of the shaky sense that you're PRETTY sure you're in touch with things as they actually are now, that you're, well, sane, but the now-forever-present awareness that that can happen, that you can end up where you were, that it's always there to go back to if something goes wrong.

I absolutely don't think we should lionize him; I 100% backed, for example, the change for the World Fantasy Award to something other than his head. He was a racist ablist and several other ists trashfire and I see zero need to ignore or make that palatable.

You don't HAVE TO, in order to engage with his work, and especially don't have to in order to use it as a place to start - to dig, and to make something else out of it. There's shit in there, so shove it somewhere to decompose at whatever degrees centigrade it is that sanitizes things and use it to fertilize new roses. But there is stuff in there that touches those feelings of alienation and fear and aloneness and taintedness better than almost anyone, and I don't have to think he was a role model to know that.

{*nb: not interested in a debate about this at this time; you are absolutely welcome to have your own relationship with this word, in your space. This is mine, in mine. Thank you.}

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I keep thinking about all of the disabled activists and people before me who stranded themselves on the 4th floor of buildings for weeks and crawled up stairs and fought with airline staff and schools and doctors and refused to stop existing in the face of injustice and bigotry no matter how big and scary and hopeless it seemed. Every time I get angry and scared the protests that lead to the creation of the ADA pop up again and remind me that disabled people are so much fucking stronger than anyone has ever given us credit for, and I can't help but be proud of that. And I know not all disabled people feel like we should take pride in our disabilities and have flags or whatever, but I think not just living, but thriving, in spite of a world that wants us dead and gone, in the face of both illness and persecution, and how we've not only bought ourselves forward, but uplifted the disabled people around us, secured more equal futures for everyone who will come after, and truly changed the way so many abled people have seen us for the better is something to be damn fucking proud of.

We have always been here and we always will be, there will never be a world without disabled people because being disabled is not bad, it's a natural part of the human experience and yeah it sucks some times but even when it sucks we have fought to build beautiful, unique, happy lives with people, both like us and not, and that should be celebrated.

The first sign of human civilization is the healed femur. The body of the profoundly disabled person who would have needed help to even just eat being carefully laid to rest after decades of a full, happy life. The medicinal plants showing even before we were entirely human we were doing what we could to not just survive, but alleviate suffering while we're at it. Above everything, evolution selected not the baby who can walk and eat and be quiet, but the one that can ask for help.

Disabled people are not just angry cockroach motherfuckers who refuse to die, we are proof of humanity's HUMANITY. Proof that natural selection selected a species that takes care of each other. From healed femurs and medicinal plants to vaccines and IVs and insulin to now, we are driven to help one another, we are at our strongest when we don't leave our most vulnerable behind. And I am living proof of that. My mother is living proof of that. Every disabled and chronically and/or mentally ill person I know is living proof of that.

And I don't know about the rest of you, but will carry that shred of humanity's true nature inside me like it's my fucking soul. I am scared and angry and hurt, but I have a lifetime's experience being scared and angry, and I can shake off the kind of pain that would make Atlas crumble to dust like it's nothing but a stiff fucking breeze. Disabled people have always been here, turning fear and anger and pain into joy and beauty and connection, and I'm not going to let everyone who came before me down. I'm not going to give up. Not now, not ever.

It's okay if you're disabled and you've hit your limit, you're too scared and tired and hurt, I won't blame you. But I won't abandon you, either. I might not be able to right all of the wrongs in the world, but I'll be strong, I'll carry all of you with me, I will not give up.

As I've said before, society hates a cripple who won't die, so we must spite them and live anyway.

Please, live anyway. I know if anyone can, it's us.

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Just to be clear, Kamala conceded with grace and dignity but it is still well within everyone’s right to demand an investigation and even a recount with due cause despite a winner being declared. U.S.Americans have the right to demand free and fair elections (we don’t have a right to, say, start an insurrection like certain people did after the 2020 election).

Many, including major swing states, (Nevada, Wisconsin, Pennsylvania, and more) have already admitted to data and ballots not being recognized or lost and are recounting or calling for a recount. It usually takes days to count and record votes, a day after a bunch of election tampering is not enough.

If you used a mail-in ballot and haven’t yet, check if it was actually counted and “recognized.” A lot of mail-in voters from swing states found out that their ballots were uncounted today.

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leebrontide

EVEN IF WE CANT USE IT TO GET RID OF TRUMP THIS MATTERS.

It matters for the house and senate- our primary means of controlling Cheeto man. It matters for your local elections.

It matters for president setting.

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For those people who need to hear it, there is nothing wrong with going back into the closet for your own safety. You aren't less queer because you can't be queer publicly. You aren't less trans because you have to act like you're not trans.

If you need to start going by your old pronouns or quietly go back into the closet to be safe - you are allowed to do that. Please do that if it means you're alive.

Your safety is important.

You are important.

And if you know someone who has to do this, don't push them. Don't out them. Follow their lead. People's safety is more important that grandstanding.

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cryptotheism

'Oil of Vitriol' is such an funny name though like, a guy had a beaker of this stuff, spilt it, ate through his table, and he was like

'yep. that is one ANGRY liquid.'

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Vitriol comes from the Latin vitrus, meaning glassy or glass like. Vitriol, also known as sulfuric acid, has a clear glasslike appearance, and is highly corrosive.

The emotion is named for the alchemical agent, not the other way around.

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Some pissed off Byzantine alchemist: "Alright dude, you know what the fuck you're acting like right now?"

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slasheru

hello again (bill clinton limewire voice) my fellow americans

There are a few states that actually have Shield/Refuge laws designed to help trans people fleeing from trans-unsafe states, which also guarantee trans folks access to healthcare. These states are:

  • California
  • Colorado
  • Illinois
  • Oregon
  • Vermont
  • Washington
  • Minnesota
  • New Mexico
  • Maine
  • Massachusetts
  • Rhode Island
  • Connecticut
  • Washington D.C.

Additionally, some states have "trans sanctuary" executive orders signifying safety for trans folks seeking healthcare. These states are:

  • Maryland
  • New Jersey
  • New York

Living as a resident in these states means you are protected by state's rights and state government to continue or begin receiving trans healthcare. These laws have been codified in their states so everything has been a-ok'd by their state governments.

Stay alive. You got this. I love you.

Black folx don't get caught slippin. Crosscheck this list with these maps made by and thoroughly researched by tougaloo college.

They're a map of sundown towns across the u.s. one is interactive. also, side note, if you know a sundown town that isn't on there, please contact them and they will follow up on it.

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