A/N: Hello! Here you go, Darling! I loved this idea and I loved paring it with a similar fic request. I hope you all enjoy! see you next Thursday<3
Your insecurities~ Sherlock Presences
Being attractive has always been something you strive for. You have found that if you have a pleasant face and good clothes people will give you what you want. Over the years it has led you to become increasingly obsessed with the way you look. You stress about it every morning. However, Sherlock never really notices what you are wearing. Whether in sweat pants or a suit it makes no difference to him. Sometimes this leads to issues when he is trying to make you leave the house in something you deem interiorly too disgusting to leave the house in. But it is also comforting. He doesn't care what you are wearing because you are still you and that's all he needs. You look wonderful to him no matter what, and he tells you that often.
Something you have always been concerned with is your weight. Our society has a tendency to drive these things into people. The thought was always sitting in the back of your mind, taunting you. You worked out all the time and ate well, but it never really felt like enough. John noticed what was happening and tried to help you wherever he could. After a particularly bad day you broke down about it. You sat on your bed, wrapped in his arms, completely exhausted, and told him everything. He assured you that he loved you no matter how you looked. He also tried to explain that as long as you were healthy it didn't matter what number the scale said. No one has a right to make you feel inferior.
You are brilliant. You have a quick wit, sharp tongue, and keen eye for detail. But you are always afraid it’s not enough. You doubt yourself with everything. Most people wouldn't see it, they would see your façade of the unwavering genius who can solve any problem thrown at them in minutes. But Mycroft sees. After all, he's a genius too. He sees the way you double or triple check it all. He can see who petrified you of being a goldfish like the rest of the world. He has yet to see you truly make a mistake but that doesn't mean you're not terrified that you will. At home he tries to reassure you of your intelligence by saying little things every now and then. His favorite is to ask you to solve something and when you inevitably get it right he just says,
“I knew I found a genius.”
It's a small gesture, but it bolsters your confidence. You know he is just doing it to help you but you don't mind. It means he loves you and that fact alone makes you more confident in yourself then anything else could.
A psychologist might call it social anxiety, you call it normal. You are constantly worried that the people you know are judging you or talking behind your back. You don't really have one insecurity, it's not just one thing you are worried about. It's the idea that people don't actually like you and are just putting up with you. Greg found out about this fairly early on in your relationship. He had been trying to get you to go out to a football match with him and his friends, but you kept making up excuses not to go. Eventually you confided in him about it. You told him about how he had made you anxious when you first met. You told him how you struggled with it every day. After that he tried to never push you too far. He listens and never wants to make you do anything you aren't ready for. He loves you and is always there when you need him.
You aren't prone to caring what other people think. You and Jim tend not to care about other people in general actually. However, you aren't immune to insecurities and anxiety. Some parts of your childhood still linger inside of you and you worry about being too loud. When you are having a bad day you talk with considerably less volume and notably less frequently. It always confuses Jim. He is used to seeing you be as loud and reckless as you want without a single thought to who is around you. When he asked and you told him about why you were being quiet, it distressed him. The idea that someone would make you feel bad for being yourself was absurd. In Jim’s eyes you're the only other interesting and decent person on the planet. No one should get to make you feel bad about yourself. So on days like that, the bad days, the stressful days Jim makes it a point to be even louder. He does this in an attempt to make you feel better, to encourage you to be as loud and ridiculous as you want. He loves you and he never wants you to worry about what anyone else thinks.
