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. “Don’t focus on them.  Just focus on me.” Thiam 😘

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Focus (thiam)

It’s been way too long for Liam to be feeling this way, or he thinks it is, but Mason argues with him about it and still tries to convince him that it’s okay. That sometimes when the brain deals with a traumatic situation then it’s only normal to still have negative feelings about something. Or about someone and different places. It’s not really something he expected to deal with so soon, but seeing his former lacrosse buddies from his other school, the ones that locked him in a cage at the zoo, and threw lacrosse balls at him, caused a mild panic to set in. Then the thought of almost losing control here during the war doesn’t help him any.

He can rationalize that they most likely don’t even remember him, and he is a werewolf now, so the odds of them being able to trap him in a cage again, is very unlikely, but his mind still hasn’t completely caught up to his rational side of thinking yet. He keeps telling himself to remain calm, keep his breathing normal, and to ignore any feeling of anxiety coursing though him. He tells himself this, but he still can’t force his mind to catch up, and he’s staring to feel himself shift as they draw closer.

“What’s going on?” He hears Corey asks, it sounds far away, almost through a muffled door, as if his body isn’t here right now, and he wishes more than anything that he could make himself forget all about his time here.

“Am I…I don’t know. How long does it take to get a drink?” Mason starts looking around frantically, peering into the crowd, as he starts to panic almost as much as Liam, and starts rapidly texting on his phone. It causes Liam to panic more and he starts to hyperventilate.

“We did tell Theo to get us like 6 drinks because we didn’t want to have to go back.” Corey’s voice sounds high, panic rising in his voice, as Liam starts to feel his claws poking through his fingertips. “Oh..he’s not going to shift here is he?” Corey latches onto Liam’s shoulder, his fingernails sinking into him, and if he was able to focus on something other than the constant memory bombarding him, he would welcome the anchoring touch of a friend, but he can’t find anything to center himself.

That night burns into his memory like a fire blazing in the dark, and it haunts him to his very core when he remembers the pain, along with the embarrassment of being caged in, and having to hold in tears from the constant yelling from his peers. Blaming him for the loss of game, because of his IED. His IED that caused him to lose it on his former coaches car.

“Liam…”

His fangs slide over his tongue, and he can almost taste blood, smell the fear from his own scent, and his entire body starts to shake from the control of holding in his wolf, and holding in his shift. He’s not a new werewolf anymore and Scott would tell him to use his anchor, but he’s not sure he has one anymore.

He desperately bites down on his lip, drawing blood, and anger starts to boil over as notices one of them laugh about something. His erratic breathing starts to catch in his throat, and he’s slipping. Slipping out of Mason and Corey’s grasp, his own mind screaming at him to do something, anything but let them get away with it. Is that his wolf, or is it him wanting to shift? He can’t find the difference anymore.

“Liam…”

A low growl leaves his throat, a silence surrounds him, he’s lost focus on anything else, he can’t hear, can’t see anything but his former teammates standing in front of him. His skin is itching. Clawing at him to let himself shift, allow his own fear and anxiety to overpower him and take over. To not allow it to happen again.

“Liam…” A hand catches his just as he’s about to lash out, his eye flickers with yellow, and he turns around to roar, but comes face to face with Theo. His hand is pried apart and Theo sighs, gently running his hand over Liam’s claw marks. It soothes him, and he starts to notice more people around him. He looks around him to find his former teammates.

“Focus. Don’t focus on them. Just focus on me.” Theo appears in his line of vision, shifting him gently so he can face him. Holding his shoulder gently, and still running his hand over the wounds on his hand that have started healing.

A small smile plays on Theo’s lips as Liam blinks a few times and starts to breath normally again. Theo leads him over to a bench, and he sits down, his anxiety starting to fade, and he is handed a drink to sip on.

“I was gone for about ten minutes.” Theo ponders to himself, and he playfully pushes Liam’s shoulder, as he takes a sip of his own drink.

“Yeah. Well…maybe next time we can do something other than the zoo.” He takes Theo’s hand in his, gently running his fingertips over his palms, and decides that maybe he might have an anchor.

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You call it madness, but I call it love (thiam)

Liam blinks a few times as he frowns at the text from Theo, trying not to feel disappointed or angry about the chimera bailing on their thanksgiving plans. It’s not that he expected Theo to come anyway, and it’s not that he is disappointed by the fact he doesn’t get to see Theo today, but he’s annoyed that he felt the need to text. He could have called. He thought they were a bit closer than that.

Is your friend coming?” His mother smiles at him, the aroma of his mother’s pies hitting his nose, and if he wasn’t so mad, he’d be hungry.

“No. He decided he had plans.” He rolls his eyes, contemplating what plans Theo could possibly have that don’t involve him, and he’s not upset. He’s merely aggravated to know how Theo has friends that he doesn’t know about, because why hasn’t he been introduced? 

“Oh, that’s nice. I’m sorry sweetheart.” His mother pats his shoulder and he shrugs casually, flopping onto the couch, and heaving a sigh. He flips through his phone to see Mason and Corey smiling back at him. Their yearly holiday picture always looks better each year and here he is, annoyed that a rude chimera is blowing him off. He really needs to get a grip.

Wait, no he doesn’t need to get a grip. Theo bailed on him and he completely pretended he forgot that he had plans prior to Liam asking. Theo never forgets anything and he’s always bothering Liam about every appointment or project that’s coming up in his life. Somehow he forgot he said he was coming to thanksgiving? It’s Liam’s first thanksgiving home since he left for college and he doesn’t get to not come and enjoy it with him. Because…well just because.

He grabs the keys off the counter, grabbing an entire pie from his mother along the way, and quickly slides out the back door, wondering if he can’t catch Theo in his apartment before he leaves to hang out with other people. Without him and without even so much as asking if Liam would like to join, and he wouldn’t join, but he wants the option to be able to.  

His mother sighs and shakes her head at him as he closes the door, already knowing where he's going and why. That’s another thing. His mother adores Theo and it’s rude that he is bailing on her too. He opens his car door and before he can rip his hair out, he takes a deep breath, doing his best to not tear out the steering wheel while he heads over to Theo’s apartment. 

The road is void of all traffic and he gets there quickly, but not quick enough to keep himself from snarling as he continues contemplating why Theo is hanging around people he has never heard of. He doesn’t have to know who they are, but he wants to know. They could be using Theo for all he knows and yes, the chimera can take care of himself but he doesn’t need to. He could just allow Liam to help him out every once in a while. Instead of threatening to rip his head off, if he so much as asks if he wants help writing a resume or help opening a door.

Pulling up into the parking lot he sees Theo sitting in the driver seat of his truck, his music playing, and the windows aren’t even up. It’s probably the coldest day of the year right now and Theo is outside with no coat just hanging out in his truck. Liam sighs and slams the door of his car and heads over to the truck. 

Theo takes one look at Liam and rolls up his window, and it causes an intense rage to boil over, and it’s taking everything in him to not rip the door handle off but he refrains from it. His mother wouldn’t appreciate any fights breaking out between them today, but Liam can’t help but want to shake Theo and ask what’s he doing, and why he’s sitting in the cold, or why he isn’t on Liam’s couch with a cup of coffee. Smiling that infuriating smirk, something Liam hates and loves at the same time, but only when Theo is smirking at him. 

He opens the back door and sits down, scanning the truck for any random person that Theo might be hiding, and he is satisfied when he finds nothing but an angry chimera looking back at him. His eyes flash back and forth a few times at Liam, until he sees the pie in his hand, and he snatches it from him, while still glaring at him. 

“What do you want? This is private property Liam.” Theo sneers at him, studying the pie and placing it on his passenger seat. The music is still on and Liam frowns, inserting himself into the front passenger seat, careful not to sit on the pie, and annoyed at himself for not sitting there in the first place. He’s been in this seat countless times before. Even if someone was in the truck, it’s Liam’s seat. 

“I want to know what plans you have and why I’m not invited?” Liam huffs out, placing the pie on the backseat and feeling his fangs side over his tongue. The scent of blood fills the truck.

“You’re incredibly nosey Dunbar.” Theo leans back in his seat, amusement lining his face, and Liam would be too if it wasn’t for the fact Theo doesn’t appear to be going anywhere at all. He’s just not going. Not coming to be with…him.

“I don’t appreciate being bailed on. I’m taking the pie back.” Liam growls out, folding his arms across his chest, and staring out the window. Theo grabs the pie and places it at his feet, his eyebrows raised as Liam does his best to remain angry, but it’s difficult because Theo doesn’t look angry at all. He’s still his snarky self, but also sad. His eyes showing hints of pain that Liam doesn’t like and wants to make go away, to disappear entirely while Theo annoys him with his arrogant attitude. 

“I wasn’t bailing.” Theo defends himself, tapping his foot on the floor while Liam gives him a pointed look, and he’s still deciding if he’s taking the pie back. He takes his phone out and shoots his mother a text that he will be late and leans slightly closer to Theo, watching as he struggles to remain silent. “I don’t like today. It’s one I normally sleep through. Happy? I didn’t want to hurt your feelings and say that I didn’t want to come. Your family is all about eating together and holidays. It makes me sick.” Theo shrugs, tensing up as Liam shifts a little closer.

“You don’t have to come to everything I invite you to but why is today such a bad day? You’re scowling more than you normally do.” Liam teases, a smile forming on his lips as he does his best to lighten the mood.

“I’m not a holiday person. My family was kind of…weird when it came to spending time together. The first holiday where I didn’t sleep through it, I was given my sister's heart. It kind of hurt and it kind of killed the joy everyone goes on and one about. Stop….I don’t want pity.” Theo shoves him back towards the door, and shifts away from Liam as he turns back towards the window.

“I’m not pitying you.” Liam whispers, a deep ache building inside of him as he observes the chimera shutting down again, and he wants to reach out, wants....needs to touch him, to let him know he’s here, but he doesn’t want to push him away even more. “I want to help. Can you let me help?” He pleads with Theo, hoping desperately that this isn’t something he pushes him away on, or threatens to rip his head off, or do anything other than let Liam help. Make it better. Even if he can only just be here. In this moment. Be with Theo. 

“There isn’t anything you can do. Just be you. Be Liam.” Theo says his name almost in a whisper, hesitating as the words tumble off his lips, and Liam can only stay frozen to his seat, not ready to move, but not ready to leave. 

“Then just be Theo.” Liam doesn’t breathe as Theo stares back at him, his eyes studying him, and he’s not sure what that’s supposed to even mean, but it’s enough for Theo to smile. A real smile. A smile that reaches his eyes, making Liam’s heart pound and flutter, and reminding him why he’s here. The inevitable realization that anywhere Theo is Liam wants to be. He could be sitting in this truck or dying beside him. It doesn’t matter as long as Theo is next to him.

“You’re not taking the pie.” The chimera smirks at him, smugness radiating off him as Liam opens his mouth to argue, but quickly closes it when he knows Theo is right. 

“You’re not sitting here all night. We don’t have to go back to my house but you aren’t spending tonight alone. “ Liam leans closer again, paying attention to see if Theo tries to move away, or tenses up again, but he only nods in agreement. 

Liam carefully moves closer, almost halfway across the middle console, keeping his eyes on Theo and his body language for any sign of panic, or nervousness at being so close. He aches to touch Theo, to convince him to let himself have this, and to let Liam reach out to him. He can’t risk Theo closing off again, but he might die at that thought of not being able to fix this. 

Theo catches his eye, tilting his head slowly to the side, unmoving, and Liam doesn’t breathe, doesn’t flinch, letting himself slowly reach out to him.  He slowly moves his hand, letting it slowly reach Theo as he places it next to his, brushing softly along his skin, noticing the goosebumps and a small shiver coming off Theo. He flinches, and Liam almost pulls away until he feels Theo lean into the touch. 

A thrill flutters through him as he keeps his hand next to Theo, and it’s not much, not really anything at all, but it’s exactly everything and more. He doesn’t dare move in fear of ruining this moment, or it being perceived he’s had enough. Enough of Theo, or enough of his touch, and it sounds comical when he thinks about it. About having enough of Theo or anything that involves the chimera. He could never have enough or ever be tired of him. He sounds like a middle schooler again, but anything with the chimera makes his mind unbalanced and his emotions all over the place. 

Maybe this is what his mother meant when she said he would know when he found his person. Theo is his person. Or his chimera. He won’t ruin this moment. He could….he finally moves, letting his hand graze Theo’s cheek, and move along his jaw, his entire body vibrating with excitement at finally being here. Finally.

The sharp intake of Theo’s breath causes him to suck in his own breath, and he waits. Waits for Theo to push him away, or let him in.  He begs the universe for Theo to let him in. He can’t handle being shut out again, but he would still follow the smug chimera around everywhere to just see him look at Liam like this again.

Like he’s everything and more. Please please please—- he wants to beg, but he remains silent, on the verge of breaking into thousands of little pieces as he waits for Theo to give him a sign, or some signal that this is okay. That he’s not misreading their relationship entirely. 

Liam is almost sitting on Theo at this point and he can hardly believe he’s gotten himself here, to this moment in time.  It’s almost killing him not to move any closer, but he waits. He’s been waiting since the elevator during the supernatural war, and he’s fairly certain he won’t die from want, but he very well might explode in a moment.

Theo places his hand on Liam’s, lacing his fingers through his, and maybe it’s the smile on Theo’s lips, or the gentle rain starting to pelt the window, that creates a fog around him and lets him feel certain of what the chimera is thinking, but he lurches forward. 

The moment his lips crash into Theo he lets out a small whine, and finally he can let himself relax, and he places his hand along Theo’s waist. His breathing comes out ragged as he has to breathe in air every minute or so. He clutches at Theo’s side, and little whimpers leave his lips as he deepens the kiss, sliding his fingertips along Theo’s jaw.

Please please please he can’t help but think, his entire mind and senses overwhelmed with Theo. He can feel and hear his own heart pounding in his chest. Theo’s own heart is beating rapidly in his chest and he wants to calm him down, but he’s also too gone to even do anything other than kiss the chimera. 

The heat of Theo’s skin touch’s his hand and Liam sighs at the contact, unable to form any coherent thought other than Theo.  

Theo shifts underneath him and as he pulls away briefly to catch his breath, all he sees is Theo looking back at him. 

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Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Liam Dunbar/Theo Raeken, Corey Bryant/Mason Hewitt Characters: Liam Dunbar, Theo Raeken, Corey Bryant, Mason Hewitt, Scott McCall (Teen Wolf), Stiles Stilinski, Lydia Martin

Additional Tags: Liam-centric, Office, city life, Warm and Fuzzy Feelings, Slow Burn, Life Changes, when you meet a boy on a subway, Frustration, Scott McCall & Theo Raeken Friendship, all the emotions of starting over, Light Angst, First Meetings, Intern Liam Dunbar, Falling In Love, moments in time, Remembering someone’s coffee, casually sitting on the interns desk multiple times a day, Sexual Tension, Getting lost in a big city, Directions, Anger and feelings, Liam is So Done, Almost Kiss, New York City

Summary:

A moment.

That’s all it takes.

One single moment to lose everything. A single moment to change someone’s life.

A moment is all it took to make Liam Dunbar question his entire future, become lost in NYC for a day, and almost miss a project deadline. All of it is thanks to the asshole on the subway.

Trying to navigate Theo and his feelings, well that is a different story.

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theo and liam being perpetually annoyed with each other is extra funny when you consider that literally no one is forcing them to spend time with each other. like liam dragged him out of hell and refused to send him back, theo decided to stay with (and sacrifice himself for) liam at the hospital with the ghost riders, liam asked theo to help him at the zoo, theo (was asked by scott but still scott didn’t have to point out liam was there it feels deliberate lol) went to the hospital to save liam in the finale like they might as well be walking around holding hands and being “i can’t believe i’m stuck with you”

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