Good Shabbos and a Wisdom of the Hebrew Priestess Oracle update!

I printed the first beta deck out this week, and soooooo many of you have signed up to participate! I’m still only planning on having 10 beta testers, but I’ll be reaching out to everyone who signed up on Sunday.

I also did my very first reading with the deck on New Years Day, using a new spread that I’ve developed just for this deck. Although I’m sure the spread will work with other decks too. The reading/spread is the 4th image. It’s based on a Kohenet community chant created by Taya Ma (holytaya.com): Shekhinah, El Shaddai, Ima Ilaah, Tzimtzimai. Shekhinah is “She who is space (i.e. Presence).” El Shaddai is “she who nurtures.” Ima Ilaah is the cosmic mother - she who connects, and Tzimtzimai is “She who makes space.” .The spread focuses on answer questions about the space we need, the boundaries we need around us, what needs nurturing and how we best connect. More on how to work with this spread later!

For me, I got the Chachamah (Wise Woman) in both the Shekhinah and Ima Ilaah position, the Leiztanit (Fool) in the El Shaddai position, and the Doreshet (Seeker) in the Tzimtzimai position. So much there for me to process. But I did notice that the Chachamah and Fool are laughing and pointing at each other on one side and the crossroads of the Chachamah is beckoning to the Doreshet in the wilderness on the other…

In the 3rd image, with the spread, you can also see how the cards have developed. I now have a 3x5 version, which is the official beta deck and an oversized 4x6 deck where the quotes are more integrated into the images, which I may offer as a special limited edition.

If you would like a reading using this Sacred She spread — leave a comment. I’ll select a few people to do some free readings for next week! Tag a friend for an additional entry!

And always credit and gratitude to my Kohenet-sister Yosefa Rafaela (z"l) for creating the beautiful wheel of the Netivot that blesses up the back of each card. You are in my heart and always with me, She Who was Most Beloved of the Goddess.

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This is so cool!! I love seeing Jewish witchy materials out there. Reposting to remind myself to keep track of this.

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Resolve

Trigger Warning: suicide, depression/bipolar, PTSD, self-harm, assault. It’s not graphic but if that mindset is going to upset you, please keep scrolling.

2017 was the worst year of my life, and I had thought nothing could take that title away from 2000/2001. My relationship of seven years is over. I have poured love and energy into friends in need who have given so little back to me when I desperately needed them, over and over. I was assaulted. I was sick. I was dead broke. I was close to homeless, staying with compassionate relatives. I wanted to die every single day of 2017 and I tried to make it happen twice.

I tried to stop hating and abusing my body and I couldn’t. I tried to stop hating and abusing myself as a person and I couldn’t. I tried to stop hating all the traumas and bad decisions that brought me to this point and I couldn’t.

“What’s your New Year’s resolution?”

I’ve never done that shit. Because it’s just an arbitrary boundary we draw in time. It’s just the day after today. And I’ve never been good at resolve anyway.

I resolve to keep going at least one more night, so that I can see that the worst fucking year I ever had is officially behind me.

And just in case I keep going from there, here are some more:

-I will get some plants. I’ll start with something small I can care for indoors, and in the spring I’ll get in the dirt and sow as many herbs and veggies as I can. And chrysanthemums. And sunflowers.

-I will swallow my agoraphobia and all my excuses about the people I’m afraid to run into and get my ass to synagogue.

-I will stop being afraid of the word “witch.” I’m a witch. I was always a witch. It’s okay to be a witch. I don’t think other witches are crazy or stupid; it does not make me crazy or stupid.

-I will get my poor lonely tarot cards out of my altar-in-a-box and give them some exercise every day. I will continue to study and meditate on the symbolism of my different decks. And I’ll write that shit down.

-I will make strategies for self-care. I will try to hold myself to them. I will not take it out on myself if there are days when I can’t or don’t. That shit is counterproductive.

-I will write every day. Every. Single. Day. Something, anything.

-I have been good about eating every day. Great job! Keep it up, Me. Every week I will cook or bake one thing from a recipe I’ve been meaning to try. Even if it’s just a salad dressing.

-I have been good about writing my dreams down every morning. Great job! Keep it up, Me.

-I have been good about studying parshah each week. Great job! Keep it up, Me. I will write down my thoughts and impressions going forward.

See yourself out, 2017.

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My birthday is this week and I was given a Nicoletta Ceccoli mini tarot deck! It's so creepy and charming and tiny and perfect and I already have a project in mind for them. The images are dreamlike and often unsettling, full of nods to fairy tales and children's literature. I'm so excited to use these! Top image is an assortment of cards from the deck. Bottom left are the Star, the Moon, and the Sun together. Bottom right are three cards that make use of twinning in their imagery (the Hanged Man, the Two of Wands, and the Two of Cups). The Two of Cups is right up a nod to "The Shining," though.