me, a hypochondriac that's just regained some sort of control over the panic that's been relatively low but consistent for months and it took all the power i had left in me to not spiral into utter hysteria 100 times a day: today feels kinda nice
YouTube recommended page that i've been consistently cleaning from all things that may even slightly worsen what's already not great: i'm thinking cancer update (BAD NEWS)
me: B-BITC-----
me: -----
me: -----
me: FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKIGN SATAN
me: HOW ABOUT YOU LEARN
me: THAT ALL I WANNA SEE
me: IS EDUCATIONAL SNAKE VIDEOS
me: FEMBOY TIKTOK COMPILATIONS
me: AND
me: DIAMOND PAINTING KITS REVIEWS DONE BY RANTY KARENS THAT FILM IN VERTICAL MODE AND HAVEN'T LEARNED THAT 3$ PAY SHIPPING "FREE" CRAFT KITS ARE A SCAM
me: THAT'S ALL I WANT FROM YOU
YouTube recommended page: k
YouTube recommended page the next day after i've managed to not relapse: look, look, A MEMOIR!
YouTube recommended page: i'll leave it here for you
YouTube recommended page: F O R E V E R
#oh for shits sake#hypochondria#health anxiety#trigger warning#tw: anxiety#tw: hypochondria#tw: cancer#tw: health anxiety#I know this be serious stuff#but i'm attempting to cope with all i have available#and humor seems the easiest#g o d why#i would blame myself for triggering the algorithms#but i've successfully stopped googling symptoms and going nuts over a year ago#great success#but this wonderful algorithm won't let me live my life in peace#and not go into full panic mode every other day#personal