having to buy a new car tomorrow and I am NOT happy about it :( can't stop worrying about my current car ending up sad and abandoned in a junkyard somewhere :( he's been with me through so much. taught me to drive. road tripped across the country multiple times. i owe him better than that :(
#grace for ts#is it the toystoryification of my psyche??#is it my latent hoarder tendencies rearing their head??#convincing me that by losing the car itself i'm also losing the person i was in all those 17 years of past memories??#PERHAMPS#:((( i don't want another car i just want this same one to keep working#but it won't and it can't :(((