alright y'all I think I'm out lol! fandom wise anyways. it's disappointing and absolutely gutting but 1. I do not entirely put it past a network procedural (in the realm of absurd, disrespectful writing and network interference) and 2. being in fandom space risks me the exposure of toxic fans that raise my blood pressure unnecessarily.

right now I'm in the "the good times were good" mindset. I am preemptively barring myself from any hope of repairing this ship and unfortunately resigning to the fact that this is what Big Stupid Shows do. keeping this blog up but I don't think I'll be blogging. it was fun while it lasted and I had the pleasure of seeing/reading art from people who are unbelievably talented. this all sucks so bad. mourning a lot right now. but I'm thankful for the time I spent in this space.

I am so so excited to hear josh's take on the bucktommy relationship. moreso can you imagine being josh russo? you have these fun incidental hangouts with your work bff's hot brother who you know as Straight. he's jocular he's fun and friendly and your bff makes jokes about setting you up but untimely he is a Heterosexual. Then one day he comes through saloon doors swinging BAM adonis of a man as his boyfriend. no slight anecdotes from Maddie about him making out with a guy at a bar nothing just BAM. hot pilot boyfriend. who is as broad as he is tall. and he is now pounding your bff's brother into the mattress. and now suddenly ur bff's brother is coming into your job break room to discuss their relationship. so now obviously you are forced to imagine Evan Buckley and his concrete shipment of a man in intimate positions while also taking in whatever emotional maelstrom buck has whirled up. and you who has lamented about the state of gay LA dating ... and has lived life entirely as a gay man ... and has more than a few extremely traumatic experiences ... just to look at your newly-out bff's brother and be like. YEAH! LET IT OUT MAN!

looking on lou's art instagram and some of his stuff just cracks me up man

YEP!!!!!!! calm collected well-executed.

honestly I feel like we have not fully explored the depths of jealous tommy yet. yes we know buck will maim and bite ankles. but what happens when someone gets too friendly with buck at a bar? or the farmers market? i feel like Tommy is secure and emotionally intelligent enough to not necessarily do a whole dog-marking-territory act about it, like he'll wrap a hand around his bf's waist to stake his claim, but what else? I'd like to utilize that sniper-level intensity of his gaze. he won't overstep with body language but he WILL point daggers. he'll cozy up next to buck and just stare. stare at whoever dares to imply his man isn't spoken for. jaw tightened, shoulders squared, with those Atlantic blue laser pointers just smoldering with raw intensity until the other person has to brush embers off their shoulder. I know id be spooked