Bloody Hands (Whumptober 2018 Day 2)
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Previous Days: Stabbed |
Liam didn’t know how long he had been kneeling there with his fists balled up in the flannel shirt he’d torn from his shoulders and putting as much of his weight as he could around the dagger. Killian hadn’t made a sound in what seemed like hours, not since he’d put his trust in Liam to get them out of this and then surrendered to unconsciousness.
God, where was the bloody ambulance?
Killian’s blood was warm as it continued to soak into the soft cotton, the bit of skin Liam could feel was cool but not cold. Not like the icy feel of the dagger against the web of his thumbs. Killian was still alive. He was still fighting.
“Please, brother. Please, please, please.” Liam didn’t even know what he was pleading for anymore. For Killian to be all right, obviously. For his little brother to wake up, of course. For this to never have happened. For his own bloody shortcomings not to be the reason he’d have to bury his brother.
For the only person left in the world who gave a damn about him not to leave Liam, too. Not like their mother. Not like their bloody bastard of a father. Not Killian, too.
Then there were hands. So many bloody hands tearing his away from the dagger and pulling at his shoulders and trying to steal him away from his brother. He couldn’t – they couldn’t – he had to stay. Didn’t these people know that he had to keep Killian alive? That he needed his brother far more than Killian had ever needed him?
He needed to be needed; it was all Liam knew how to do in this terrifying world.
“For the love of God,” a voice growled in his ears before a hand worked its way under his arm and yanked him away from Killian for good.
Liam struggled; God, did he struggle. He bucked and tried to kick and tried to get his hands underneath him so he could get some leverage. But the men he was fighting were stronger; there were more of them. They hadn’t spent the last minutes, hours, days, years shouldering his little brother’s weight so that Killian could thrive.
All Liam’s fighting got him was a knee in his back and the echoing click of handcuffs securing his hands behind him.
“Stand down!” a voice shouted in his ear, the accent familiar, but the voice not recognizable enough to filter through. “They’re trying to help him!”
Liam blinked. The red haze started to fade from his vision as logic started to assert itself once more. There were men crowding around Killian, but they wore uniforms. Paramedics. Medics with IVs and gauze and bags with things to help his brother.
Killian would be all right.
“Let me up,” he growled, trying to roll off his stomach or get his knees under him.
The weight on his back didn’t move.
“Get off me!” he shouted. “Get off!”
They were moving Killian now, hefting him bodily onto a gurney and lifting him away from the cold concrete. There was a mask over his face and the white of the sheets below him wasn’t nearly enough of a contrast with the pallor of his skin.
There was so much blood left behind.
Too much blood, saturating Liam’s shirt that the paramedics had discarded as if his efforts to keep Killian alive meant nothing.
“Let him up,” a new voice ordered, this one easily recognizable.
“You’ll be calm now, won’t you, Captain?” the voice asked in that infuriatingly calm manner that Nemo always seemed to favor.
Liam nodded. He’d agree to anything that didn’t end up with him handcuffed somewhere he couldn’t follow Killian.
“They’re helping him, you know,” the first voice – the officer who’d been kneeling on his back – supplied helpfully.
It all blurred a little after that – the jangle of keys, the rush of feeling back to his fingers, the path out of the warehouse and into the backseat of a warm car. The ambulance was long gone by the time they’d gotten Liam out of there, and all he could concentrate on was the rush of blood pulsing in his ears, the flash of lights as they sped down the road, the smell of sweet copper assaulting his nostrils.
The sympathetic smile of the nurses who deposited him in a private waiting room with a canister of wet wipes and a red trash can.
His hands were covered in blood. It caked under his fingernails and stained his palms and made his fingers stiff. It itched in the webs of his fingers and stung his thumbs and…
Liam scrubbed at Killian’s blood, trying to clean it from his hands. Trying to erase it from existence. Trying to make up for the fact that his little brother had left so much of it behind in that warehouse because of him.
It didn’t matter. No matter how many wipes he used, no matter how hard he chaffed at his hands, they’d never be clean. Not anymore. Not with Killian fighting for his life in some other room that Liam couldn’t get to.
They were both so alone right now and all Liam could do was watch as droplets of his own blood splattered on the cheery rug beneath his feet.
He didn’t notice when a nurse came in to check on him, hurrying out again with one look at the mess they’d left behind when they’d led him to this room.
He didn’t notice until a man in scrubs graffitied with speckles of blood, his hands suspiciously clean, knelt down in front of him.