CS AU: We Make Our Own Fate - Chapter 5
We Make Our Own Fate: A What Still Remains inspired CS AU
Summary: Emma Swan had been born on the cusp of the event that had changed mankind forever. A pestilence. A sickness that stripped away the humanity of those infected, those changed; abandoning the rest of the population to try and survive, not only the disease, but the crumbling of society itself. Nearly twenty-one years later, Emma finds herself at a crossroads - accept the opportunity presented to her by the handsome stranger she happened upon one fateful morning, or remain at the only home she’s ever known, alone.
A/N: Hey there! Look at that! AN UPDATE! Sorry it took me so long. This chapter gave me fits, as it deals with some pretty heavy subject matter. I feel like after this and the update to Burden a few days ago, I’m gonna owe y’all some fluff or smut as a peace offering…
Though the fic is inspired by the film, this is not a retelling of that story. Themes, scenes, and dialogue will be repurposed, but major changes have been made to the overall plot. This fic features both Captain Swan and Knightrook, as well as elements of Captain Gothel. If you need any clarifications on how these relationships are presented within the fic before deciding whether or not to read, please do not hesitate to message me. Though I will make every effort to update this fic as often as I can, there will not be a regular updating schedule.
Beta’d by the fabulous @artistic-writer, who also made the incredible banner. My thanks and everlasting love to @kmomof4 for all her flails and shouts along the way.
Content warnings: post-apocalyptic society, survivalists, religious themes, mentions of child abuse, mentions of sexual abuse, mentions of non/dub-con, whump, munchausen by proxy, assault, and other bad things to be added as we go.
Chapter 5
Killian ran his hand down his face, an exhausting tension clenching at his shoulders as he pulled in a stinging breath from the cold night air. The shift in the day’s weather mirrored the upheaval in the overall atmosphere of his world. Just as summer had seemed to come to an abrupt end, with the dropping temperatures and bluster of northerly winds, so too had the sweet camaraderie he’d established with Emma. Swept away by the reveal of a cold, harsh reality.
He wished he could go back and tell her the truth from the beginning.
Robin’s question cut through the turmoil of Killian’s thoughts, allowing him to take a moment’s refuge.
“She’s sleeping now. Eloise believes she’ll be fine by morning.”
Robin nodded. “I’m sure she will be. She always bounces back quickly from these episodes.”
“Aye.” Killian looked back over his shoulder at the structure that housed his little starfish. He hated having to leave her there in the care of her mother, but he had no other choice. Taking solace in the fact that his Alice was at least at peace in her dreams, Killian turned his thoughts back to the pressing matter still awaiting his attention this evening. “Where’s Emma?”
“In your cabin,” Robin answered. “Waiting for you.”
Killian filled his lungs again before exhaling a lamented breath. “I’ve messed everything up. I shouldn’t have brought her here.”
Killian shook his head and stared at his feet. “I don’t know.”
“Yes, you do,” Robin pressed, causing a surge of irritation to flair within Killian.
“Of course it does.” Robin stepped forward and placed a hand on Killian’s shoulder. “Look, mate. I know you’ve been beating yourself up for not being honest with Emma, but you brought her here for a reason and knowing you… it was as much for her benefit as yours.”
“How do you know that?” Killian snapped. “How do you know it wasn’t out of some selfish desire to use her in order to help me and Alice?”
“Because I know you.” His grip tightened, forcing Killian to look his friend in the eye. “You aren’t Malcolm. You aren’t Neal, or Eloise, or any of them. Maybe you didn’t do things properly, but you can confess it all to her now.”
“What’s the point? She’ll just insist on leaving anyway, and I’ve already given my word to help her escape.”
“Trust me on this, mate,” Robin implored. “Tell her your story, come clean about your motives - all of them - and she’ll stay.”
Killian tried to smother the hope that flared in his chest at his friend’s words. “How can you be so sure?”
Robin shrugged and removed his hand. “Call it a hunch,” he said with a wink and cheeky grin before walking off and disappearing into the blackness of the night.