When I tell people I have social anxiety disorder they often tell me they don’t believe it, because I’m always smiling and friendly with people. I take it as a compliment because I constantly worry I’m a total weirdo who everyone hates, BUT it really is a big misconception about anxiety that you have to be the awkward one hiding in a corner with the cat. Having anxiety makes me extremely aware of myself in all situations, which means I avoid uncomfortable moments at all costs. I’m very good at small talk and making other people feel at ease. Often times before a big event or a busy day at work I get so overwhelmed I cry and have panic attacks. But right before I walk in I dry my eyes, put on my smile, and take a deep breath. There have been so many days at work where a customer has thanked me for my bright smile and told me my genuine kindness changed their day, not knowing I was crying in the car an hour before they saw me. Having social anxiety doesn’t stop me from living my life, it just makes it a struggle at times. It makes me happy to know people see me as a bubbly person, but I hope they also understand that even the most outgoing people may be hiding deep fears. I’m glad my smile makes a difference to people, and I work hard everyday to keep it that way. :)