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today. today is monday. november 23, 2015. today is a new day. today is another day.

i am writing this post to give myself something to do. i am writing down my thoughts and my feelings. i am trying to do something to keep myself occupied. i am patiently waiting for my next class. i am waiting for it to be tomorrow, so i can drive home. i am wanting to be home with my family + friends. but for…

Two years ago I wondered if in two years the hurting would still be there. Everyone says healing takes time, but I didn’t want it to take time; I wanted the hurting to be over.” -Jordan Griffin  [Two Years Later]  Two years ago, I was watching one of my favorite people graduate from college. Two years ago, we celebrated this occasion like any good friends would: the three of us hung out and had…

How can I live in the moment when my thoughts never feel like my own and don’t know how to admit that I’m broken: how can I, be alright? -Bea Miller, Ch. 1: Blue Today has been a rollercoaster of emotions, and honestly, it’s just been “one of those days.” You know, the kind where you feel like your head’s gonna explode or you may just cry at any moment for no reason at all? Like you’re always on…

There’s a lot going on in my life. And honestly, right now I’m just trying to remember to breathe, let alone actually live my life. It’s been a challenge. There’s been a lot of times where I’ve given up and given in, and then there’s other times where I have to fight against my mind in order to simply keep going. I don’t even know why I’m writing this here, I guess I just needed an outlet. To…

In theory, I could just run away. Go somewhere completely different, where I could start over.  But life doesn’t work like that & reality sucks sometimes. In reality, I’ll just stay home over this week and hope that I can somehow escape my own head for a minute. Or maybe my body will stop hating me and I’ll start feeling better (read: less sick). Maybe I’ll have fun over break.  To quote Lauren…

We’re circles we begin again.” -Sabrina Carpenter, Don’t Want It Back  I’ve just been doing a hell of a lot of thinking recently. About a ton of things, actually. And I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m still rushing things, trying to do too much and letting my mind go all over the place.  I mean, don’t get me wrong, sometimes that’s okay. I do love to have ideas about the future. But there’s a…

The day is finally here: it’s my f̶i̶r̶s̶t̶ ̶l̶a̶s̶t̶  last first day of college….of school, like ever. (Unless I decide down the road to go to grad school, but that’s not happening now anyway). I can’t believe it’s here…and I also can’t believe how many emotions I have running through me right now. On the one hand, I’m excited for school to be over with, but on the other hand, I’m nervous for…

Long time no blog (well, here anyway, but more on that in a minute).  It’s almost Thanksgiving and I couldn’t be happier to have a break.  Lately I’ve been super busy with school, especially with my English class.  Also, my duties as EIC for Odyssey have kept me going as well, so I haven’t really had the time to sit down and type something out on here in a while (course I didn’t know it had been…

I need some time to clear my head. Moving on: it’s about letting go of what you thought and learning to hold onto something different. I really have had a rough couple of weeks. I did some things I’m not proud of and made a lot of mistakes. I can’t change the past. Past is past for a reason. I’ve been dealing with a lot of things — well, actually I should say that I’ve been running…

It’s that time of year.  Where kids are rushing around trying to pack their bags and pick out their clothes.  Saying goodbye to summer bliss and hello to brand new books and classes.  It’s back to school!  Or, for me, it’s back to college!  :)   I can’t believe I’m going into my senior year (again – course this one will be much better than my senior year of HS) of college.  I have a pretty decent…

*inspired by an article I wrote earlier: I Won’t Apologize and these first couple days on vacation as well as a lil bit by the Essena O’Neill social media frenzy* I am not the girl you think I am.  I’m not the girl with a great boyfriend that waits on her hand and foot. I’m not the one with the #relationshipgoals Instagram collages celebrating some romantic moments. I’m not the girl with a bunch…

How the lost get found. It’s time for me to tell the truth. No more sugarcoating.  No more bullshit. I haven’t been okay for a long while, and looking back over my old posts, it’s probably been a good 2 months since I was stable.  Maybe even a little longer, I’m not entirely sure.  When I say ‘stable’, I mean mentally, physically and emotionally sound.  I have been through so many ups and downs…