kaleb-is-definitely-sane reblogged
"How many scars did you justify because you loved the person who was holding the knife?"
#I’m the knife because I wanted you to grasp me and I thought finding my body would be easier if I were outside it- when it scarred.#I’m a knife because I needed to bleed the world without admitting that I was a tool#i thought it was better to be violent than scared#but I directed that at myself and now I’ve realised#i was wrong; too#to hurt myself#I’ve got to answer to the fact that I’m not just metal; I’m also a whittled wood handle of a tree that was cut down in its prime#To the fact that I didn’t have to taste flesh. That I could be good without being perfect#that punishing myself was like flaying the people who were trying to hold me still when I was hysterical#To how sometimes I was hurting myself to see the skin part and not to enact justice#to how sometimes I went overboard in holding myself accountable.#<- oh my goodnessssss#this is really good <3333#saved#fav fav fav#prose poetry#poems on tumblr#tumblr poetry#spilled poetry#sad poetry#poetry prompts#this is me#personal aesthetic#kaleb aesthetic#poetry inspiration