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watching troy in ancient history class and glancing at my apollo bracelet at every mention of Him like a character from the office glancing at a camera

saw the scene where achilles beheaded a statue of apollo and shook my head with a thumb down so He knows i don't approve

once again, i love Apollo immeasurably. i had an absolutely devastating day on friday, through which He comforted me and told me to let it out as much as i could because i tend to repress this stuff. on saturday, He told me to take it easy and rest. and now, today, on His sacred day, He basically said "alright, up we get" and is helping me put myself back together.

guys i love Apollo so much. i was crying so much yesterday and it felt like i had my head in His lap and i kept having pep talk and comforting words pop into my head. at one point i was like, “what if i'm just talking to myself” and i distinctly remember such a gentle, slightly amused tone going, “well that would be okay too, wouldn't it? it's still helping you, isn't it? what does it matter?” and that kind of confirmed it was Apollo for me

when you're a hermes soul child trying to make a joke but also an apollo devotee that Must Rhyme

i'm a hermes soul child of course i value all comedy except the type of comedy where someone is just trying to be offensive without any repercussions by labelling it a joke

i'm an apollo devotee of course i can easily spot when that happens and do not take it lightly

this may sound weird but i've finally developed a sense of balance in terms of what i call apollon.

for context, i feel weird if i say apollon all the time because it feels too formal and restrictive, but it feels too casual to constantly say apollo too.

so now, instead, when i'm talking to or about him in a lighthearted / casual manner with other hellenic pagans or other devotees ( or just yapping to him about my day ), i say apollo. when i'm talking to him formally ( i.e, inviting him for a reading, giving a formal prayer, etc ), talking about him seriously, or talking to non-pagans about him then i say apollon.

this is a weird analogy but it's kind of like how in some fiction, the king's son will call him father or dad in private but address him as "his majesty" or "your majesty" in front of others!

point of this post? i don't know, kind of a reminder that your practice is your own, and that you can mix and match if that works for you.

“source???” the patron of prophecies FREAK

me realising it's past midnight: oh my gods hypnos is going to be so angry with me

apollo, knowing full well the only reason i haven't slept yet is because he slammed me with intense artistic inspiration at 10pm: quite

just got fucking possessed and suddenly there's a drawing of apollo on my sketchbook

does anyone else have prophetic dreams but they're just really useless <- guy who has had many prophetic dreams of small moments in the far future and have seen them come true exactly as they were in the dreams including my thoughts during it but it's never really important like … just me sitting in a specific room wearing specific clothes listening to someone talking about a specific thing , or me walking past a specific building with the weather a specific way and even the chatter of the people around me was specific

love how i finally tried to do some divination on my own again and apollo showed up immediately like "omg??? you're doing divination again??? after a month??? omg!!!!"

being in class and seated right next to the window where the sun is fully in view is so nice and it's ok if the other students want the blinds down too because i can always just reach over and feel the sunlight with my hand anytime i need some help with how to phrase a sentence

and on this bright sunday before the dawn of pyanopsia , i offer to the lord of arts , a drawing of my oc dying in a glue trap

apollo: ok so i'm gonna make sure you stop talking to everyone that isn't good for you ok? :)

me: but i struggle with confrontation :(

apollo: that's ok you won't need to worry about that :)

me: ok :)

*insert extreme anxiety plaguing me ( no pun intended ) as soon as i converse with people that i was already not fully comfortable around , thus giving me an excuse to see those people less and less ( "sorry my anxiety is real bad these days gotta go" ), that same anxiety disappearing as soon as i'm out of those peoples' immediate vicinities <- guy who has never experienced that kind of anxiety in his life*

apollo: sooo how's it going :)

me: oh

　　　　𝒫hoebus　𝒜pollo　౨ৎ

SUNDAY!!!! APOLLO DAY!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!