i abandon hatred. i leave it behind, for it no longer serves me nor do i serve it. i love, i love, i love. i do not hate without reason, i do not cast judgement without purpose. i have experienced it, i have known it, i have served it and served it well. and i serve it no longer, for what have i gained? i do not wish this pain on my worst enemy. this is not out of a self righteous desire to be holier-than-thou, rather to avoid anyone else feeling this hurt that aches my heart and grinds my bones. all the misery i project, what is there to gain from it? satisfaction? happiness? fulfillment? no, i will no longer bind myself to these feelings without reason. i break these chains. i will not be fettered to a darkness that only swallows me with it.