Who's that "not sure if to tag as an oc" in the vent?
He's not exactly my oc. But I played him. It's complicated. A person I met over 10 years ago played him and then handed him to me, that's when I started to play him.
He was… a monster. I played him back when I couldn't even speak proper English. It was weird. He was that one character people wished to have in the group role to make things interesting but nobody ever played. He was… dangerous. In many cases, the worst person who stepped into the room.
The context was... well what can I say…? It was Amnesia. The game. But ugh... it wasn't just Amnesia. It was more bound to a specific side of that fandom. That somehow gradually also melted back into the original Amnesia. Fusing together. Basically he was one of the bad guys. Most likely the worst you could stumble upon. Unless we talked about his creator. But not in every role play group his creator was still around. If he was, then he was the second worse guy you could stumble upon.
It was a weird way to role play you know? But he was… important to me. He still is in a way. I don't thin I can put into words the fact that me and him have a complicated relationship of player and character. I can't put him aside completely, even if I think I did. What he was, I'll never manage to create an oc that's him but just de attached from the past. I tried.
He always remains him. A monster, that people fear when he steps into the room, an immortal patchwork that got broken and killed and put back together. And he always comes back, always "gets back together".
And I still say I owe him a lot. He wasn't just a bad character, played badly in a weird universe that made no sense. He was important. He still is. And i miss him dearly even if I tell myself there's nothing to miss. And then he returns every once in a while.