WIJ Day 9
“Look at me.”
CW: military whump, vague allusions to minor whump, promise of torture, torture being normalized, choking
Kai was perfectly confident in their ability to stand at attention for a few hours, and they didn't worry about the pressure of an officer slowly walking by, looking for something he could criticize in every person. Kai stood in the front row of the formation, shoulders relaxed and breath even, trying to remind themself this was familiar and no different from what they had down for twelve years at school, even as the officer passed in front of them and gave them a hard look.
He walked past them and stopped, and Kai knew better than to breathe a sigh of relief, not wanting to draw attention to themself when he was still so close. “Look at me,” he commanded, putting his hand on the well-oiled whip clipped to his belt.
They saw the cadet’s head dip out of the corner of their eye as her gaze dropped down to the whip, swallowing before opening her mouth to answer. She didn’t get a chance, however, when the officer raised his arm and slapped her with the same force that Kai could imagine him swinging a whip.
They knew she didn’t see it coming. She stumbled, her body twisting as she bumped into Kai. Kai wondered if the officer had done this on purpose, remembering the look he gave them earlier, and in the same instant they managed to grab the other cadet’s arm without moving their shoulders, helping her regain her balance in the most subtle way they could manage, hoping the officer wouldn’t notice.
"I said look at me, cadet. You are not going to make it very far if you can't even follow a simple order."
"Yes, sir. I'm sorry sir," She replied quickly, turning her face to him.
The officer hummed in approval. "Good." He waited until she relaxed before smiling and raising his voice so the entire group could hear. "This is a great example to show everyone how punishments will work, don't you think? Thirty lashes, tomorrow morning before training begins."
He walked on after that, ignoring her shaky response, looking for the next target to terrorize. Kai kept their gaze forward, listening to the proceedings behind them as each cadet hoped they wouldn't be picked out, and those who were answered nervously. It was easy to zone out, not completely of course, but they only took stock of the words they heard, not thinking about them any deeper than they had to.
It had seemed like the officer was about done, when he once again returned to the front and his gaze settled on Kai. "You," he pointed at them, taking a step until he was right up in their face. "Look at me."
"Yes sir." They carefully dropped their blank stare straight forward, turning until their face was toward the officer, and their eyes looking slightly down, just barely avoiding eye contact. They had learned early on what the boundary between respectful and provocative was when you looked at a superior.
"You seem experienced," He looked in their eyes for any sign of uncertainty, but he was right, Kai was experienced with officers just like him, and they've had years to learn what they liked best. "Your name, cadet?"
"Kai Waykes, sir!" They projected their voice slightly, answering in the tone that they knew was expected of them when an officer asked them a question on parade. They found themself tensing as they wondered what his response to that would be.
"Hm." He nodded as if he just heard something interesting that he needed to think over. "Step forward, Cadet Waykes.
They gave another "yes sir" in reply without having to think, glancing down. The officer was already standing too close for them to take a proper step, so they shuffled forward, their boots almost touching his.
Before they could find their balance, they gasped when they felt a hand in their hair pulling their head back, before another hand clamped around their neck. They just barely held back from letting their hands fly up and claw at the increasing pressure that cut off their air, and their teeth gritted as they pressed their middle finger to the seam of their trousers, keeping still even as they felt their lungs start to burn.
They were lifted until only their toes were left hovering on the ground. They didn't need to be ordered again to keep their eyes on the officer, letting their unfocused gaze go to the space above his face. Their eyes were almost starting to toll back when he released them, and they stumbled, canting sideways dangerously before he steadied them with a hard grab of their face.
"Now, don't think things will be easy for you just because you're more experienced than the others. Nothing personal against you, but the better you are, the harder we will push you. That's how we ensure our best future officers reach their full potential." Smirking as he watched Kai try to catch their breath, he took a step back and addressed the whole formation. "Dismissed. I will see you all at training tomorrow morning. Don't miss the show."