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NMB48 Kinoshita Momoka’s Kiteiretsu ‘My time as a kenkyuusei where I held strong against unreasonable demands’
~Choker~
I know it just seems like a collar, but to me it’s an item to which I have very strong memories attached. After passing the NMB48 auditions, it was an item that I used to wear sometimes, however I was yelled at by a certain staff member to 'take it off’.
Even while thinking that they had no reason to control my clothing I wore outside of work, I took it off obediently.
Afterwards, even though I was being obedient, the same person started saying to me again 'you’re not idol-like at all’.
Even though I said I would quit because of this comment, my application to quit was rejected.
This exchange happened numerous times, until I snapped. I made up my resolve that I may be fired for it, and I started wearing lolita fashion to handshake events.
That person must have given up on me, they never said anything to me regarding my clothing again.
When I was a kenkyuusei, there were times when I wasn’t allowed to eat my bentou along with the members who had been put in a team.
Because of these experiences, I can now deal with most unreasonable demands which are thrown at me.
I’m glad that I started as a kenkyuusei*. I really, honestly think so now.
Translator’s Notes:
* = Momoka was one of the few first generation members who wasn’t promoted to original Team N, so by this she means that she’s glad she started out as a kenkyuusei first. This wasn’t mentioned explicitly in the text but I thought I’ll put it here for background information.