I don't know if you heard me. I said, blimey.

crying at this bit in 'dead lions' that goes: "to river, her gaze seemed to turn inward, as if she were looking for something she’d left at the back of her mind. and he noticed for the first time that her hair wasn’t entirely grey; that in the right light, might even look blonde. but her nose was long and pinched, and she wore hats, and it all added up to a kind of greyness, so that was how you saw her when she wasn’t there, and after a while became the way you saw her even when she was. a sort of witchiness that might even be sexy in the right circumstances." river really thought standish could be mother but also... mummy? 😼