(cw: self harm, depression, fatigue, loneliness/isolation)
#and all I can think is *captain kirk would be so disappointed in me*#or *captain kirk would be so ashamed of me*#tw: self harm#self harm#tw: depression#depression#tw: loneliness#loneliness#tw: isolation#isolation#tw: depressive episode#depressive episode#not trek#not really#personal log#I hate being cold it makes me physically and emotionally ache#seriously it's like there aren't enough furnaces radiators space heaters blankets or heated Anythings in the world to make me feel *warm*#complaining#whining#sorry#jtkchu's brain#stfu jtkchu#soul sick#chronic fatigue#chronic exhaustion#but also insomnia#somebody punch me in the fucking face