i don’t understand when people say they love sam winchester despite him drinking demon blood
i love him because of it
i love him because he fucked up, got blinded by someone he thought he could trust. he went along with it because he’d lost his brother, the last member of his blood family, the most important thing in the world to him. he went with ruby because she was there, she was nice to him and she treated him like he was an adult. don’t get me wrong, i have nothing overtly against the way dean treats sam - christ, he went to hell for him, how could i? - but i do think that sometimes sam does. so when it came down to it he was alone, he was afraid, and ruby told him he - and him alone - could save the world. he could use the fucked up power he’d been given by azazel and save the fucking world - could use something about himself that fucking haunted him for good, to help.
basically, i love sam winchester because he fucked up trying to save everyone he could and not giving a damn about whether he was saving himself all the while. he is my precious unsung hero and he makes mistakes, and that is exactly the reason i love him so fucking much.
And let us not forget the first time we know of him drinking it is because he thinks he needs it to save people. He’s exorcising demons WITHOUT KILLING THE HOST which was really important to him. And it helped him practice getting strong enough to kill Lilith. Which I might also remind everyone was the entire goal of he AND Dean. Dean just didn’t like the methods. They had the same end game. Neither of them knew the real deal. The angels were manipulating them, Ruby was manipulating them. And Ruby had saved them both many times in the past. True, Dean still didn’t trust her but I see why Sam did. Everything Sam ever does is for someone else. I don’t think he ever got over his guilt of leaving for college and losing his father and almost his brother over it.
