God Slayer

I honestly am not really sure why I’m on this app anymore. I joined to find some community in deconstructing religion and cPTSD. But people on here are so angry, don’t allow any nuance, and purposely misread everything you say in the worst possible way. Reading comprehension is truly trash. (as a deliberate choice. People just want reasons to be venomous to one another. So they purposely misread what you put and interpret it in the worst tone possible.) and it’s honestly just… weird behavior. Please talk to people irl more. This isn’t how communication works. I share a skill I learned in therapy that would help a lot of people and get responses like “idiot you think capitalism is the root of every issue ever” “wow condescending baby talk” “So you’re invalidating people who need medication to fix mental health problems” literally no???? What the fuck are yall talking about???????? This app is just “I like apples” “so you think everyone who likes oranges should die?” I know that’s the price you pay for posting online, you WILL get people disagreeing or being hateful and I’m okay with that. I’ve had 2 TikTok accounts with over 100k and 300k followers, I get it. But the behavior here in particular is so strange, toxic, and unproductive. And clearly a symptom of being so insanely online that you’ve forgotten how people talk irl.

I’m done ranting now. I just think tumblr is another example of what the internet does to your brain. So I’ll probably leave here too because it’s not good for me. It’s so hard going through religious deconstruction in the Bible Belt where there’s ZERO community to talk about it with. But I’ll just find it somewhere else that’s productive. You only get a little bit of time. Spend it on things that fill your cup :) and remember none of this actually matters

I truly think the bible has many harmful/unhealthy teachings. People will try to deflect and say only when it’s twisted by abusive people or taught “wrong.” But no, I think it has harmful teachings at its very core. As an example:

When certain emotions are labeled as bad/evil/a flaw or something you just “shouldn’t do” it prevents many people from being able to process emotions healthily. See Ecc 7:9, Ecc 11:10, Col 3:8, Phil 4:6, James 3:16 as a few examples. I went through my life as a christian never really fully processing anything, and I was so emotionally unhealthy. Instead of viewing emotions as neutral signals from my body and sitting with them and letting them move through my body, I would read the thought terminating cliches of “don’t be anxious give it to god” or pray about it and continue to be disconnected from my body. I would feel shame when experiencing normal feelings of jealousy, anger, anxiety and feel like I was spiritually failing. That shame would cause me to continue to suppress those feelings instead of hearing and processing them, and it could cause it to come out in dysfunctional ways. And I see this in hundreds of people who are Christians in my life.

After leaving religion, yes, there can be a hole left in your heart. But it’s not just god-shaped and can be filled with many things. Philosophy, art, loved ones, new hobbies, new passions, deep thought, learning new things, new spirituality, connection with your own inner wisdom, whatever you want. After deconstruction you can reconstruct something new and beautiful and fulfilling that’s not religion.

Your life gets significantly better the day you stop pretending you’re a robot. You’re a silly little mammal, act like it motherfucker. Your ancestors made tools with rocks and sticks, ran around a lot, had sex, lived in communities, ate when they were hungry, rested, chanted together, felt the sun, breathed outside air, listened to the trees and birds. You have biological needs bitch!!!

Hey Google hey how to be normal after your mom invalidates your trauma and implies you’re just being dramatic Google how to be normal after hey Google how does one be

I started sobbing last night because my partner started to say “you’re telling me that tomorrow we have to go to work??” In frustration but he cut himself off and instead said “you’re telling me that tomorrow… we get to be again? Wow!” And I’m trying to hold that energy throughout my day today while I’m in a nihilistic ass mood because damn I really need to just… be. And to appreciate and enjoy being.

If we have social safety nets for people then churches can’t manipulate people into their special club by exploiting their physical/financial/social/emotional needs (if they deem them morally worthy of help by their standards). And republicans can’t funnel money upward to a select few while getting the ego boost of an occasional charitable donation that ultimately is just a band aid to the issue and doesn’t actually make any long term or meaningful change.

I have been following someone on here for a while who was clearly a leftist and then they just started reblogging a bunch of pro forced birth stuff like??? Yall are so weird I don’t like this app

That ex christian moment where something stressful happens and you instinctually go to pray only to be met with your inner child or your own consciousness looking back at you like oh shit I forgot it’s just you here what’s up lol

For pride month I crocheted a bunch of gay stuffies for people at work to take if they want 🥹🏳️‍🌈 (wish me luck I am in the Bible Belt) happy Pride Month! I love you all

Why yes I do think I’m better than god. Because I’m able to process my emotions and forgive people and be empathetic towards them. God can only forgive if he tortures and murders his own son and if everyone begs for forgiveness their entire life and serves him. We are not the same.

I’m about to save you thousands of dollars in therapy by teaching you what I learned paying thousands of dollars for therapy:

It may sound woo woo but it’s an important skill capitalism and hyper individualism have robbed us of as human beings.

Learn to process your emotions. It will improve your mental health and quality of life. Emotions serve a biological purpose, they aren’t just things that happen for no reason.

1. Pause and notice you’re having a big feeling or reaching for a distraction to maybe avoid a feeling. Notice what triggered the feeling or need for a distraction without judgement. Just note that it’s there. Don’t label it as good or bad.

2. Find it in your body. Where do you feel it? Your chest? Your head? Your stomach? Does it feel like a weight everywhere? Does it feel like you’re vibrating? Does it feel like you’re numb all over?

3. Name the feeling. Look up an emotion chart if you need to. Find the feeling that resonates the most with what you’re feeling. Is it disappointment? Heartbreak? Anxiety? Anger? Humiliation?

4. Validate the feeling. Sometimes feelings misfire or are disproportionately big, but they’re still valid. You don’t have to justify what you’re feeling, it’s just valid. Tell yourself “yeah it makes sense that you feel that right now.” Or something as simple as “I hear you.” For example: If I get really big feelings of humiliation when I lose at a game of chess, the feeling may not be necessary, but it is valid and makes sense if I grew up with parents who berated me every time I did something wrong. So I could say “Yeah I understand why we are feeling that way given how we were treated growing up. That’s valid.”

5. Do something with your body that’s not a mental distraction from the feeling. Something where you can still think. Go on a walk. Do something with your hands like art or crochet or baking. Journal. Clean a room. Figure out what works best for you.

6. Repeat, it takes practice but is a skill you can learn :)