saturn moons

oooh i loved that!! There are so many songs that I think fit them dkokf but here are the 5 that I like the most:

Parallel Universe - Clara Benin Dói Tanto - Gabriel Froede (it's a brazilian song, but i swear that is beautiful) Moondust - Jaymes Young Eyes Off You - Prettymuch Secret Love Song, Pt. II - Little Mix and a few more extras because I actually couldn't choose just 5: Finality - Woods of Ypres Pra Ser Sincero - Enganheiros do Hawaii (It's another Brazilian song that I love a lot, there's a part in particular that in my opinion fits them perfectly kfdokf the translation in English would be like: We both have the same flaws, we know everything about each other, we are suspects of a perfect crime, but perfect crimes leave no suspects.) Wherever You Go - The Calling

And finally:

Janeiro - Esteban Tavares (This is another Brazilian song that I really love, and this one has a special place for me. I think this song is so beautiful and it's so Clegan dkfokdf I love the whole song, but especially this part that translated would be like: "I wish I were in your place right now, just to understand what it's like to be in my place. I wish I were in your shoes right now, just to understand what it's like to see me from another point of view. Tell me that you don't want to leave me, that you have the key to get in, that you solved the equation, that you know how to get me out of the depths. That you know how to save me from the world.")

a clegan au when Gale realizes he can't say John's name. Ever since he died, he had never said his name again. He just couldn't. Talking about him in the past tense would make it too real.

And he realized this only a week after his funeral. When John's favorite song came on at the bar he was at, Gale didn't even realize he had said it out loud.

"Oh, he loves that song."

And when the stranger next to him asked who, his answer was on his lips. John. But he felt physically unable to say it. A lump grew in his throat and his eyes filled with unspoken longing.

He wanted to honor John's memory and talk about him to people. He wanted to tell his stories, to tell of all the times John made him laugh. But he couldn't. And that only made his guilt grow. He didn't want John's memories to die with him. He felt a duty to share everything John meant to him.

But he couldn't even say his name.

a clegan au where after John dies, Gale continues talking about him in the present. not because he sometimes forgets that John died, no… he wouldn't forget that for a second. he just couldn't talk about John in the past tense, it hurt too much. he also never corrected people when they thought he was still alive, because of the way he talked about John.

John's death to him was like an open wound, and talking about him in a way that made it clear that he was no longer here was like rubbing salt in the wound every time. he just couldn't do it.

I was listening to a sertanejo song (it's a genre of music from my country and it's similar to country), and the lyrics are very clegan, at least in my head

A piece of the lyrics, translated into English:

the smoke destroys my lungs, the drink destroys my liver, the longing drowns my eyes and still, I survive

there are pieces of me in different beds, poorly lived loves, poorly kissed mouths, poorly slept nights.

you know the motive, the reason and the culprit… so, how do you have the courage to keep talking bad about my vices? if they are saving what you did to me. how do you have the courage to say that I'm living wrong? if I just forget you like this… anesthetized.

Like, think about John increasingly indulging in drinking, and one night stands, because he can't bear to see Gale with Marge… and when Gale criticizes John for living like this, he gets angry because he's just like this because of Gale.

a clegan au where John love Gale so much that he doesn't want to live anymore, because Gale would never be his.

the realization hit him like a punch in the stomach, making him lose all air. ''I don't want to live'', John thought, ''I don't want to be alive'', he realized as tears gathered in his eyes. and now that he had realized it he couldn't stop thinking about it.

''I don't see any reason to be alive'', he kept thinking. it hurt, not having hope of getting better, how that hurt. it was the kind of pain that made his chest burn, physically burn. it was such a strong emotional pain that he felt it throughout his trembling body. His pain was reflected in his stomach that refused to feel hungry, in his eyes that continued to burn with repressed tears, in his throat that tried to suppress the urge to vomit that was growing.

he never thought he could feel so much pain. but every time he closed his eyes, he saw blue. the blue that reminded him so much of the sea. the sea that made him wish he had never learned how to swim, so he could drown in it. he would enter its blue immensity where he would waste his breath until his bitter lungs cried out for air. an air he would not receive. he didn't want to breathe anymore. he just wanted to get lost in that blue, he just wanted to drown in that blue.

every night, the blue of Gale's eyes haunted him, even though he closed his own eyes, he still saw it. if he slept, he dreamed with this blue, and while awake, that was all he saw.

loving Gale made John want to die, because he could never have him. and every day john cursed the God who put him in this world, just to make him love another man. why would God do this to him? he didn't understand. why make him love another man in a world that didn't allow that? it was unfair. was it a punishment? he didn't think he deserved it, despite all his sins.

what hurt most was his own desires, how he couldn't help but think what it would be like to live in a world that allowed him to say out loud that he loved Gale, a world in which he could feel gale's lips on his. sometimes he dreamed about it, and when he woke up it seemed so real that he could have sworn the kiss had been real.

it was horrible to think of a world where things could be different, because no matter how many times he thought about it, how many times he imagined it, no matter how many times he screamed to the sky begging, shouting ''please'', nothing would change and he could still be happy only in his head, only in his dreams. and each day that passed made it even less worth waking up. it was just to difficult to live knowing that he could only be truly happy in his fantasies.

and because of that most days he tried to sleep early even though he wasn't tired or sleepy, he just couldn't stay awake another second in a world where Gale wasn't his, while his eyes were open all he felt was pain. it was so much pain, much more than he could handle.

every time he opened his eyes and reality hit him, he was reminded that he could never have what he wanted. he could never be the love of his life. he just couldn't take it anymore.

it was so despairing and every time the air went in and out of his lungs, his despair increased, so he didn't want to breathe anymore.

if John could define living in just one word he would say that living is disappointing. he just didn't want it anymore.

sometimes Gale seemed to notice his sadness and at random moments of the day he would ask how John was.

''i'm between wanting to take your clothes off, or wanting to take my life.'' John would respond if he was honest, instead he said ''I'm fine.''

he just wanted to close his eyes, dream about Gale one last time, and never wake up.

I want to read a very cliché and kind of silly Clegan fic, you know? like Buck being the straight-laced student, who no one can get close to, known as the Ice King, for being super indifferent, so others only admire him from afar, because they know that if they tried anything with him it would be useless

So Bucky makes a bet with a friend (Curt) saying that in a month or two he can win him over, make Buck fall in love with him. and bucky at the beginning is a bit of an idiot, yes, but not a bad person, just with a bit of a big ego. But then, completely in love with Buck, he does everything to win him back.

One thing that I find funny, because it's happened many times with my favorite ships from different fandoms. Usually the character I prefer as a bottom is seen as a top in the fandom, and the one I prefer as a top, the fandom prefers as a bottom lol It's not that deep, but I think it's funny because this always happens, I'm never with the majority lol (the metric I'm using for this is ao3 and twitter fanfics.)

Buck: I think I’m coming down with something. I’ve been so nauseous lately

Curt, seriously: maybe you’re pregnant

Buck: …

Curt: …

Buck: I don’t know who’s the bigger idiot. You, for suggesting that or me because I almost had a panic attack.

Curt:...

Curt: oh yeah, It's impossible for you to get pregnant

Buck: obviously

Curt: 'cause you're a virgin

Buck: ...

Curt: loser

I want a clegan fic where Gale is married to a mobster, who treats him like a trophy and stuff, but doesn't treat him very well in general. And John works for this mobster, as a bodyguard or something like that. 👀 He could have been in the air force before but he left for some reason and ended up getting involved in this. And the last thing John wanted was trouble, but him and Gale end up falling in love.

I was thinking about a modern clegan au, where John, on Curt's advice, decides to make a profile on a dating app, and when he sees a blond guy's profile he likes it immediately, because he's simply the most beautiful person that John has seen in his life. John even feels ashamed for having liked it as soon as he saw the photos, and didn't even read the profile.

John and him start talking and John falls in love in a short time, and they agree to go out, but every time it gets closer to the day, the guy makes up an excuse. The third time this happens, John starts to get suspicious. But he tries to ignore it, because he really likes him and wants to believe in him.

When John asks him out again, the guy says he had to move out of state because of work, but in a few months he'll be back, and they'll finally be able to see each other. And so, 6 months pass and John still super in love.

When John tells Curt about him, Curt says it's crazy that they've known each other for half a year and still haven't met, and John says it doesn't matter because he's really in love and that he fell in love at first sight, and Curt just rolls his eyes saying that doesn't exist. But when John says he's already tried to meet up with him, but he always cancelled, Curt starts to get suspicious and asks to see his photos, information and social media. John doesn't like it, but he goes along with it at Curt's insistence.

The other day, Curt goes to John's house and says that John fell in love with a fake, and explains that this guy, who introduced himself to John as Luke, is using someone else's photos, and that the person in the photos is a model called Gale Cleven. And despite feeling a little bad for John, Curt didn't resist saying ''how could you fall for that?you're a respected air force major.'' and John just defends himself by saying that maybe he wanted to fool himself, since he thought the guy was very handsome, and wanted to believe he was real. since he ignored the doubts he had and believed what Luke said, and that's why he didn't research him.

The other day, John tells Luke that he already knows the truth, and since John sends the link to Gale's (verified) Instagram, the guy knows he can't deny it and tells the truth. And he asks for another chance and for them to meet, but John denies it and blocks him.

At the weekend, being drunk, John ends up sending a DM to Gale, telling him everything that happened and how he fell in love with a fake guy who used his photos. B ut what he didn't expect was to wake up the next day with messages from Gale, replying to him.

Buck: I want a baby

Bucky: No.

Buck: Oh okay.

Bucky: Wait! Don’t ask another guy I’ll do it!

Crosby: WHAT’S YOUR TYPE

Bucky, bleeding: blond, blue eyes, tall, pretty lips--

Crosby, desperately: YOUR BLOOD TYPE

Bucky: Oh! B positive.

Crosby: I'M TRYING TO, BUT YOU'RE BLEEDING A LOT

clegan au where John accidentally discovers that Gale likes to be called princess

They have some stupid argument and John says ironically "ok, princess", and notices the way Gale doesn't argue back anymore and and the way his cheeks turn slightly red. At first John thinks his silence is anger, and the others might think so, but as John knows how to read his expressions like a open book, he notices the embarrassment.

At the time, John is a little confused by Gale's reaction, until he realizes…. Oh, he thinks, this could be interesting. And then he starts calling Gale princess more often, always liking the way his cheeks turn red, and he tells himself that one day he'll be able to get him to admit that he likes being called that, because obviously Gale always pretends not to like it.