does it lessen your affection?

I am literally begging, BEGGING modern media to portray healthy relationships. enough cheating. enough infidelity. enough disrespect. show me people who love each other, proper communication, and a strong mental as well as physical connection. I want plots about people who are madly in love with each other and STAY madly in love with each other. please. I am losing my mind.

Yes indeed (I’m gonna try to keep this short, and I’m stupid proud of that graphic up there).

Five years ago, I was in eighth grade, dreading the start of high school and still drawing on iPad apps. I had fallen for One Direction, anticipated the mediocre film adaptation of The Mortal Instruments to be released that August, and was a year away from subscribing to Netflix—and effectively entering a thousand fandoms at once.

Little did I know that there were thousands of strangers who would appreciate my sense of humor and my artwork, and propel this to be a platform bigger than I ever imagined. 

The highlights:

Look, the blog has been a huge part of my adolescent life, mostly for the better. It has served as a creative and emotional outlet, and occasionally even allowed me to communicate with some wonderful people. I have to thank some of my original followers/all-time loves:

I plan to do a special art giveaway at some point this year to celebrate (when college isn’t happening)!

Anyways. I love you all and appreciate you so much. This blog has helped shape who I am today. I don’t currently have plans to smite it—too many more books to read.

Much love (and many thanks),

- Liz.xx

I can’t believe I’m only seeing this now. I have literal tears in my eyes :’’)

You were one of the first blogs I ever followed back in 2013 and I still remember to this day visiting your blog on a daily basis, even before I created an account on tumblr. This brings back so many good memories... Your blog played a big part in my motivation to create my own tumblr and inspire me in my own edits and gifs afterwards. The TSC fandom has been and will forever be in my heart, even if I drifted a bit away from it today. It’s also the case for my jemsdrug blog in general actually, I don’t have the heart to delete it. And I don’t regret keeping it to see stuff like this today.

Liz, I hope wherever you are at the moment, I hope that you are happy and healthy and never forget how amazing and inspiring your art is! Thank you so much, this made my day ♥

what if i didnt want finnick odair to be killed by lizard mutts did suzanne collins ever think of that

it’s so nice of them to lay out a carrot for edward even though they know he’s not coming

can we just talk about how they put all their food DIRECTLY on the table??

The banana is upside down and I’m pretty sure Rosalie has half a block of Gouda cheese in front of her

men who can’t maintain platonic friendships w women can’t be trusted lol

favourite characters: Steve Harrington (Stranger Things)

She won’t even know I’m there. I’m stealthy, like a ninja.

Rami in the beginning of the decade:

Rami by the end of the decade:

I’ve realized that one of the things that bothers me about Jem and Magnus and now Aline is that none of them have Asian last names, and they’re all half-Asian, which to me just says that Casserole wanted to make their non-white heritage as invisible as possible.

To clarify the half-Asian point: mixed race people are full inheritors of their non-white heritage, and the fact that Cassie doesn’t bother to try is very telling. Mixed Asians are Asian, and should be portrayed as such, but white authors like Cassie treat them as discount-white.

I have a mixed-race SEAsian protag in one of my own WIPs. But the difference is I’m writing him as actually mixed-race, with all the emotional baggage that comes with rediscovering your culture after being raised away from it. Cassie just slaps a half-Asian label on her characters and calls it a day. And not only that, she made sure that all of them have Asian mothers, so that in her fantasy patriarchy, they would have white last names from their fathers.

And sure, it doesn’t need to be the focus of the story, but it’s NOT THAT HARD to drop hints, like mentions of an altar or the lingering smell of incense, or always having a platter of fresh tangerines on the sidetable. Where are the mentions of doubling up on holidays? Of mixed feasts with turkey and potatoes and fried rice and roast pork? I think Cassie has them drink tea a few times, but could you get any more stereotypical?

tl;dr: Mixed-race PoC deserve to be represented with just as much nuance and grace as any other PoC, not used as shields so a white author can claim to have representation without putting in any effort.

Adding a slight correction: there’s one more Asian character, Divya. She’s the only Asian character to have an Asian last name. Which… i really don’t want to get into all the fucking baggage of East Asian women marrying white men in this post.

This is her entire entry in the fandom wiki. What the fuck does she actually look like?

I mean, why would CC put any thoughts into it? Why would CC in her 900 page book of unnecessary sex, and steamy scenes, and horny white teenagers take the time to describe divya a little bit? I mean an Indian woman? Of course she’s going to be quite. Of course she’s going to be the perfect, sweet, inncent girl, shy girl. Why would CC show am Indian girl fighting, kicking some ass, being sassy, sarcastic and intelligent? I mean that’s only reserved for whites isn’t it? Indian woman? Of course the only thing that describes her is her nose stud. And of course brown woman exist only to prop up and support white protagonist.

Fin.

@CC and the fandom

The only other full blooded Asian in CC’s books in Shinyun Jung from The Red Scrolls of Magic, and later she is revealed to be the villain. This really says a lot doesn’t it. There wasn’t even any effort put into her character, the only signs of her Korean heritage are her bringing up which dynasty she used to live in, but other than that she could’ve been white for all i know.

Shinyun,,, is not, as far as I know, a particularly Korean name. Like, maybe very technically? Can someone korean confirm or deny this?

Hi, I’m half Asian.

I feel wholly under-qualified to speak on this, since I only knew Godfrey Gao as this astonishingly beautiful man, who was just beginning to make moves in a film/TV career. But what hurts for me… Is that I also saw him as this great potentially centered male lead…  And we all know how short in supply Hollywood is when it comes to *especially* Asian male romantic leads.  So, what I’m saying is, my heart hurts for he meant for Asian representation and it hurts for the communities of east Asian peoples who were his fans, in particular.  I hate to see arrested potential in starved sectors of the arts and I’m sad for those who were fans and of course, his loved ones, who hurt the most. He was too damn young.  …fuck.

^^^ THIS

He was considered as the first Asian male supermodel as well.

And he had so much more waiting for him... He’s definitely left a lasting imprint on the Asian community and its representation. He will be missed...

Rest in piece, darling

1984-2019