puts him in my pocket and sits down and hears a crunch

@eldrai, @masterwords and @whump-town with Hotch...

online friends are just. i miss you like we’ve met before. you know my family inside and out and none of them know you. the ocean is achingly big but you know i’d cross it for you. you text me good morning as i finish dinner. i wish you could come over for dinner. we have a hundred plans of things to do together and they all feel so far away. i love you as if you were here. for now i’ll love you from here.

the reason why we blurt out i love you's online excessively is because we don't have a lot of ways to show our affection and adoration. we cannot hug each other, we cannot see each other laugh or cry, we cannot hold hands, we cannot prepare food or draw on each other's hands. you cannot kiss their forehead and tell them by holding their shoulders and looking into their eyes, that you are here. you cannot lend a hand in any physical chore that your internet friend is performing, you cannot bring them warm water in the morning or make tea for them. you cannot water their indoor plants or sit with them under the sun and just talk. we are so far away, there are only a few ways that we can let the other person know that we love them. we prepare playlists, we prepare moodboards, we make posts for them. we say i love you excessively because we cannot act the love that we want them to receive.

having online friends is just “i made food does anyone want some” “i’m gonna fight ur dad” “remember that time you made a typo a year ago that we Still remind you of daily” “i know your deepest trauma but not your last name” “here are the random plants i associate you with” “good morning at 9pm” “goodnight at 7am” “my dog says hi” “LMAO NERD. keep talking about obscure anime tho i’m interested” “hey i know you’re asleep right now but this meme made me think of you” “if we were irls we’d Totally be dating by now” “one day when we live together....” “dude i bet i can jump higher than you let’s have a contest Right Now” “i don’t know what this weird school rivalry you have is but i support you!!!!!!” “getting in the car Right Now to give you a hug” “if i eat lunch while you eat dinner it’s basically like we’re eating together” “i am holding your hand as we speak” “i am kissing you on the forehead right now” “here let me braid your hair for you” “i love you” “i love you” “i love you”

i love my silly little internet friends hey silly internet friends if you see this. i love you

i am mutuals with some high quality blogs and i don’t even know how that happened bc my blog is trash

#honestly#all my mutuals are so amazing and i'm over here#like...a potato

you are fabulous and tomorrow is going to be one of those really randomly good days where small, peculiar bits of happiness arrive all day at unexpected times. i can tell.

listen to colubrina. she really can tell.