bye

hello! you're right, i'm no longer active (on this account), but i'd just like to answer this to clear a few things up, seeing as i've stopped using this account seemingly out of nowhere. (you can still find me over at vanopstyles, though. chat me up if you wish :-) )

i found it hard to keep up with what was going on in the fandom, basically. i think i left this blog around 2013? i was transitioning into my senior year of high school and kind of had to go online less to focus on school. i had an ft island phase for a while before giving up completely on tumblr. i don't know, i guess i quite had enough of all the kpop and decided i wanted something new for myself. so i moved over to my sideblog, kikasetee, and used it to reblog stock images and fashion and the beatles and whatever other thing i wanted that strayed as much as possible from kpop. the problem was, however, that it was a sideblog and that my dash therefore was filled with kpop - the one thing i desperately wanted to let go of. so i made a new blog altogether and named it vanopstals (after arnold van opstal. beefcake). it was basically a continuation of where i had left off - stock photos, pretty things, etc etc. and everything was going well - it was boring, i'll be honest. i had no one to talk to. but it was peaceful. so peaceful and i found myself feeling so calm, yet it at the same time felt like i was in limbo; that i was waiting for something to happen. april of this year, something did.

i got into one direction. there was a lot of self-denial and, you know, other general forms of denial, but eventually i allowed myself to succumb to that calling, if you will. i ended up changing my username to vanopstyles (because harry styles is so precious). i didn't want to be in another fandom again, but i just kind of let things flow and now i'm here. i'm 19 years old, taking up a fine arts course in uni, and 1D af. i'll be lying if i said that i don't miss this account (i miss the friends i made over here), but i really love where i am now. one direction is such a shady band and their management is one million times shadier and harry and louis are 100000% dating and god, i am just so in love with biting my fingers all the time because one day, everything will come out and come clean and i'm just here for the day that it does (it also helps that i'm 598372900% in love with the band).

sorry, i talk to much. anyway, i hope this clears a few things up! if you wanna talk to me - about anything! - i'm over at vanopstyles, and my inbox is always open :-)