When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 57 & Epilogue

Not gonna lie, this feels almost surreal.  I don’t know if any of my readers are still out there or if y’all gave up on me (which, fair, I’m not mad) but for those that are still here: I have finished this fic.  It is done.  And it feels like I’m closing a door in my heart, but in a good way because I’m not locking it, just closing it.

For those of you still here - I hope you enjoy this.  I know I’ve enjoyed every minute and conversation with you.

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 7652

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Eh, the usual.  Talk of trauma, flashbacks, that sort of stuff. You know I like to keep it real.  But there’s also fluff.  All the fluff.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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He reaches up to press a button and a panel of the roof slides to expose the sunroof.  Through it you can see bright lights and the tall rise of the buildings on either side of you.  It’s strangely soothing – almost hypnotic – and you keep your gaze up until the buildings are long gone and the atmosphere clears of light pollution. The stars wink down at you as Bucky drives, although he brings the car to a stop about a mile away from your destination so you can both look up toward the heavens.

Warm fingers twist with yours, the radio station playing 80s music sings quietly, and you don’t have to ask to know that – for the moment, at least – Bucky is at peace.  

And so are you.

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I’m a sobbing mess.

Cass, you blow me away every time I read your work. This was the most perfect ending to my all time favorite series. There’s so much in here that I want to comment on. But the all time best moment was the Father’s Day scene. 😭

Then there’s Tony’s letter, and her dad, and the boys and Galina …. I love love love this series and I’m so amazed with what you’ve done with it.

Thank you for taking to time to write and share your work. It’s amazing! I’ve been their biggest fans, rooting for their white picket fence since chapter six lol and what a fence you built for them!

Thank you, Cass.

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 56

Y’all.  I’m almost done with WEMtbB.  I can’t believe it and have Feelings™ about it.

To the lovely people that have been here since forever, thank you so much for your patience and faith in me.  I’ve been working on this story for 5 years, have made some amazing friends, and wouldn’t trade a single second of it 💜   

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 5004

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Eh, the usual.  Talk of trauma, flashbacks, that sort of stuff.  Some fluff.  Mikhail. 

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By the time you finally get back to Bucky it’s much later than you’d anticipated and you’re exhausted, but in a good way; for the first time in a long time it’s more physical than emotional or mental.  Shopping with Nat should qualify as an Olympic sport.

Nat pulls the car into the parking garage and nods toward the elevators.  “Your Prince Charming is already waiting for you.”

Following her gaze, you see him leaning against the wall by the elevator.  He looks freshly showered and his brow is furrowed at whatever he’s looking at on his phone, but his smile is warm when he looks up and his eyes meet yours.

It was only an afternoon, but you’d really missed him.

He walks over to where Nat parks the car and opens the door to help you out before pulling you into a tight hug.  

Neither of you says anything.  You don’t have to; you can feel each other’s relief and fierce pride at having made this first big step in healing.  

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When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 55

Well, I didn’t hit my goal of getting this sucker done by the end of the year.  But you know what?  That’s okay.  I made progress and that’s what counts.  I’m not sure many people are even reading this anymore, but there are a few of you that have been with me since the start, and it is for you that I will finish.   The next part released will be for the companion piece to show Bucky’s POV.  

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 2376

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Not much, this is actually pretty light, all things considered.  

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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Why does everything make so much sense when Stan says it?  “You know, I think you’re right.  I – I don’t think I’ve ever worked with a therapist like you, either through school or personally.  You’re very effective.”

He smiles broadly, “Well, being on the team serving the Avengers is fairly unconventional, and sometimes we have to modify programs in unusual ways to fit our clients’ unique needs. Which is what any good practitioner should do, really.”  He shrugs, “But rest assured that our methods are grounded in evidence-based practice, and that my entire team is held to the strictest standards regarding ethics and client outcomes.”  Stan leans forward, eyes sparkling, “And we have very good outcomes.  It’s going to take some work, but you, my dear, are going to be just fine.  And so is Bucky.”

You find yourself nodding. You believe him.

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✨✨WHAT A WAY TO START THE YEAR BUT WITH MY FAVORITE SERIES OF ALL TIME!!!✨✨

Oh my gosh, can I please go shopping with Nat? Please?? And with Tony’s card!!

This chapter was perfect and I am so incredibly happy to see her making progress!

Awesome chapter, Cass!! I can’t wait to read more!

do you ever read fanfiction so good you wish it was a book that you could buy and put on some shelf in your bedroom and gaze at sometimes and remember how amazing that motherfucker was instead of having to squint at it on your too bright phone screen at 3 am

That’s what Lulu is for folks!!! Make your own fanfic-book! For cheap! It’s quite easy once you get the hang of it!

It

Is

So easy

(even easier if you don’t bother doing personalized covers like me but I wanted it to look realistic)

@cassiopeiassky​ well, looks like I’ve just upgraded from printing out WEMtbB to having a tangible book (with your permission, of course)!! Score!!

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 53

Hello yes hi it’s been AGES since I’ve had an update for you but look!  An update!  Contrary to public suspicion I have not, in fact, fallen off the face of the earth.

That said, thank you all so much for your patience.  It means the world to me.  If you choose not to read anymore because I’m so pokey, I understand.  Just send me an ask and I’ll take you off the list.  You could, in theory, stop - the major arc has finished.  But if you want to stick around, there’s still plenty of their story to tell before they’re done :)

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 2167

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Feels and emotions. They’re dealing with the aftermath now, so there are parts that are kinda heavy.  

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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“Yeah.”  You take another bite of pie as you smirk.  “You know, it’s going to be hard to top our first first date.  That was pretty fantastic.”

“Is that a challenge?”

“Nope, just a fact. That was seriously the sweetest, most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me.”

He smirks, eyes smoldering. “Doll, you’re gonna get the full Bucky Barnes treatment – the barn date was me with one hand tied behind my back. I’m gonna knock your socks off tomorrow.”

Anticipation spikes your blood – somehow, you believe him, but you can’t miss the chance to gently tease, “We’ll see.”

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The domestic, lazy-morning feel to this was pure bliss! Like, it's a total bedsheets, bare skin, gorgeous dream of a chapter.

I'm not gonna lie, though, I just about teared up when she was thinking about calling the boys.

And the way Bucky talks to her!! *Le sigh* what a dreamboat.

Cass, I swear I will never be tired of this series and I love every update on my OTP (#Cass and Bucky deserve happiness 2020) Thank you for sharing another chapter!!!

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 52

You guys are the absolute best, most patient readers ever.  Thank you so, so, so much for waiting on this, and like every other slow update over the past year and a half that my life has been a raging dumpster fire.  I love you all.  

Also I am a needy carrot that needs love and affirmation please send love and affirmation

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 2431

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Tooth rotting domestic fluff, some angst if you squint.  PTSD mentions/symptom descriptions.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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Bucky joins you in the bathroom a few minutes later with a pile of clothes for you both.  “Take as long as you need, Sweetheart,” he presses a kiss to the back of your neck as he wraps his arms around you.  “Just keep in mind that every time your stomach growls, I’m gonna think you’re ready to pass out.  You’ve had IV fluids but haven’t eaten since we were on the jet.”

You smile at his reflection in the mirror as you lean into him, intensely grateful for how much he cares for you and for getting back these little moments with him.   “I won’t take too long, I promise.  I just want to get comfortable.”

Eyes soft, he nods.

You both exhale.

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I feel like I can finally breathe again. I know they have a lot to deal with but this really is a relationship for the books. I just know they'll make it.

I am so happy to see Bucky trying to make things as normal as possible for her. And I'm glad they're eating again, the mom in me just about screamed.

Miss Kiddo. 😂 That's just about the cutest thing!

Bravo as always, lovely! I cant wait to see that date!!

That smirk at the end, though.

This is the epitome of the Winter Soldier to me. @cassiopeiassky, when you wrote the scenes in WEMtbB where he is pretending to be the soldier and he has to hurt her and be blank - for lack of a better word- this is exactly how I picture him. Chin down, cold eyes, waiting for instructions, and numb to what's going on around him.

This is the Soldier, I see.

A WEMtbB update is coming!!! The big 5-0!

Most likely tonight, tomorrow at the latest.

Here’s part 49 in case you missed it or just wanna brush up since it’s been like 84 years since the last update.

AAAAHHHHHH I AM BOTH NICK AND JESS RIGHT NOW! THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 49

So when summer vacation started, I seriously thought I would finish this series before school started again.  Ahahahahahahaha nope.

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 3497

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Not much…this is actually kind of a filler chapter to get from point A to B.  Anxiety, PTSD, mentions of injuries.  Mention of completely justified murder.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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You know damn well that you can open up to him, and you will, but right now you’re just too fragile. There’s no doubt in your mind that he’ll put you back together when you break, but you’re just not quite ready to do it yet.  You’ve been free for less than 12 hours – everything is too fresh, too close.

As he presses a kiss into your hair, you know that he knows what you can’t say, and you know that his tender kiss is a silent promise to be there for you when you’re ready.

With his strong heartbeat for a lullaby, you allow yourself to drift off to sleep.

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Unghh. He's just so dang perfect to her! Gosh, the reunion with her boys is gonna make me cry, isn't it?

I literally pterodactyl screeched when I say you posted. My phone notification looked like this; "Tumblr: Cassiopieassky posted a text post: Wh" and I KNEW!! I LIVE for these characters and I'm so happy to see an new chapter.

Thank you for posting, dear!! Here's to a stress free semester!

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 48

Look ma, another update!

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 4828

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Not much…mentions of blood.  Maybe some anxiety.  Sass because she’s resilient af.  Fluff.  You’re welcome.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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“Maybe we just leave it in there.  Her artery should eventually heal around it,” Sam muses as he does God knows what.

“No…they coat their bullets in lead.  If they cannot cause death they are usually more than happy to cause suffering.”

“Bastards.  Well, we’ll have to worry about that after we get her home.”

Home.

You try to focus on that word, on home, instead of their talk of clamps, needles, potential avascular necrosis, and blood transfusions.

The word echoes as consciousness fades.

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FINALLY!! For the love! This is the reunion I needed!! ...did I say me? I meant them. The reunion they needed. ...Oops.

Seriously though, this was perfect. It was painful but comforting, serious and funny, sad and happy. Brilliant. Perfection. I'm so glad the sun is out again!

fic inspired moodboard | for @cassiopeiassky

Look at what the amazingly talented @dessinemoiunehistoire made for me💜💜💜

This is so beautiful, thank you so much!!!

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 47

I’m so sorry guys…this has been a long time coming.

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 2693

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Mentions of guns,  threats of physical/sexual assault, panic/anxiety, and injury    If I need to add anything else, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  If you don’t want me to publish the ask, I won’t, or you can feel free to do it as a Nonnie.  I will not take offense to any trigger warning requests.   Your well-being is important to me and I do NOT want to trigger anyone.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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The bike slows, and you realize there’s a paved road ahead of you.  He pauses before cautiously turning onto the road, constantly checking his mirrors as he goes.  You can feel him relax the tiniest bit after another minute goes by, but then he tenses right back up as a bright light suddenly appears on your right.  There are a few loud cracks before you realize that a car is the source of the light, and then a quick, sharp pain in your right thigh causes you to flinch as headlights flood behind you.

Bucky speeds up and guides the bike back into the woods, turning sharply to avoid a tree before you see his head turn and do a double take as he increases his speed once again. Following the direction of whatever had captured his attention, you see a dark spot growing on your leg.  You can barely feel it, but you can see it well enough with the headlights still following you.

You’ve been shot.

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AAAHHHHHH! CASS!!

Oh my goodness! I'm so proud of Bucky!! There is so much about this that I love but I still have so many questions! Who came for help them? Who is she? Sandy blonde hair?? I know another sweet child who had sandy blonde hair? IS IT SO CASS??

I really enjoyed the visual you gave of her view of the fight when Tony gets her out of there. I could really see that and it was so cool!

Once again you've got me hanging on every word. Brilliantly done, Brilliantly done.

When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 46

Hey, look what I finally got to do!!  No lie, it felt like a great big hug when I finally got to sit and write.  I have a paper due in 10 hours and 5 minutes that I haven’t started?  What?  I don’t know what you’re talking about, ha ha ha…

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 3081

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Mentions of guns, violence, death,panic/anxiety, and injury    If I need to add anything else, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  If you don’t want me to publish the ask, I won’t, or you can feel free to do it as a Nonnie.  I will not take offense to any trigger warning requests.   Your well-being is important to me and I do NOT want to trigger anyone.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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“I’m sorry,” he mumbles when he reluctantly breaks the kiss, pressing his forehead to yours.  “I know this isn’t the time or place, I just needed to feel you, to convince myself that I’m really here with you.”

You huff a quiet laugh in response as your fingers caress his scruff. “Don’t be, I was just thinking the exact same thing.“

You each hold the other, taking the opportunity to breathe each other in. Like all good things, it can’t last nearly long enough.  

Bucky pulls away, but remains close enough to maintain bodily contact.  “I need to check in with Stark, Sweetheart.  We’re getting you out of here tonight.”

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AAAAAHHHHHH! Oh my Cass, I can't word right now, but I'll try.

Firstly the beginning of this was everything I needed. Finally together. PRAISE. Oh my goodness but way to leave me on a cliffhanger! It fine I'm just hyperventilating...

I'm both Nick and Jess, right now.

I’m finally almost ready with the next update!!!

I was hoping to post it while my kids napped, but they woke up about 20 minutes too early. So tonight!

I was starting to feel super guilty about being so pokey about updating lately, and then I took a peek at the info and realized I’ve been working on WEMTBB and IDWTWTSM for almost a year.

163,258 words

325 pages

55+ parts

And it’s still going

I don’t feel guilty anymore! I never actually thought I could do this, to be honest. But I did. And still am, despite kids, school, and everything else.

On top of that, I have met some of the most amazing people in the fanfic community, and for that I’m incredibly grateful!

So where am I going with this post? No idea. I guess I just wanted to share my (very rare) self positivity since there’s a lot of heartbreak going on in the world right now.

I hope everyone has a reason to smile today 💜💜💜

Omg yes!!!!! I'm so excited!! I won't be able to read until really late but I don't care! I will stay up till dawn if I must!!!

I don't know of any Winter Soldier x Reader fics. Mostly, I see Bucky one's. I've got a few Bucky fics and one series. But if you're really looking for the Winter Soldier @cassiopeiassky has a series where the Soldier makes an apperance. It's amazing and I live for that series. It's called When Everything's Made to be Broken. It's kinda perfect.

When Everything’s Made to be  Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 41

Hello everyone!  I’m briefly surfacing from the pits of academic hell once more to bring you this!!  *three more weeks of school…three more weeks of school…three more weeks of school*

To all of you that left feedback/comments on the last part - I apologize for not responding, but things are really chaotic right now.  Just know that I do read each and every one of your comments *cough cough* multiple times *cough cough* and I appreciate them (and you) more than I can say.

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 2952

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Violence, physical assault, death,  mentions of blood, mentions of murder/death (including non-established characters),     If I need to add anything else, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  If you don’t want me to publish the ask, I won’t, or you can feel free to do it as a Nonnie.  I will not take offense to any trigger warning requests.   Your well-being is important to me and I do NOT want to trigger anyone.

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You’re just going to lie here for a minute or five, not long. Just long enough to pretend, long enough to maybe fool your mind into sleeping when you get back to your room. Just long enough for your heart to stop its ever-present ache, even if just for a minute.

A gentle sigh escapes as your body reacts to Bucky’s proximity, and you feel yourself relax into the mattress.

You’ll just close your eyes and lie here for a minute.

…only

…a

…minute…

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CASS, IM SHAKING!! I'm freaking out! Oh my gosh, I don't know what to do with myself, I could literally run around screaming, right now! First of all, that wake up was terrifying and poor Buck. Secondly, the deaths... what the actual heck?!?! And finally, I am so proud of Michail for slipping her the note! He knows the punishment for what he's done, he only just had a reminder, but he did it anyways. I hope that he gets rescued, too. That poor thing needs some light in his life. Uughhhh, I am not okay. Yes, I am but you know what I mean.