“James” - Bucky x Reader(f)
Authors Notes: Oh my glob. This fic… lots goes down in this and I’m pretty sure its the longest thing I’ve ever written that isn’t a series but hey, what can I say? I loved this concept and I just got carried away.
Inspired By: This post @lalawoo (Thank you for sharing this pic and I hope you don’t mind me tagging you but seeing as how it’s your art I felt like I should) and the concept that Bucky can trigger himself.
Word Count: …3.8K + (Why am I like this??)
Notes/Warnings: Violence, angst, tears, injuries, burns, mention of guns, Nat being a bit of a buthead(sorry, I needed a grumpy gills to move this story along), fluff at the end.
You were his weakness. You had been for months; not that you knew about it. Steve did though, and Bucky hated it.
“Just ask her out.” Steve would nudge in private.
Steve frequently caught Bucky stealing glances your way and he always encouraged Bucky to make a move. Bucky, however felt differently.
He wasn’t ready, he was sure of it. And he knew he didn’t deserve you or even the luxury of thinking about what it would be like to be with you. You were everything he ever thought a woman should be; strong, beautiful, confident, and so smart. You should be with someone less damaged than him, someone who could match you in intellect and who wouldn’t drag you down with a shattered past.
Today, he felt no different. You, Bucky and Steve were paired up on a Hydra operation and Bucky was doing his best to let you handle yourself. You didn’t need his help but all he wanted to do was protect you, to walk in front of you to make sure you never took a hit, but that would mean admitting that he saw you as more than just a team-mate.
Things had been pretty smooth so far, you took the lead with Bucky and Steve at your six. Every corner you turned revealed the same thing; an empty hallway or an empty room. The anticipation of running into someone decreased with every turn, and the nerves became stronger.