I’m teetering on an edge.

I’m very stressed and very excited about a new system we are installing.

I’m stressed because it has no project management and it feels like it’s headed toward airplane propellers.

I’m excited because the software will SOLVE so many of our problems. 

But right now, 3 days before it goes live, I’m primarily STRESSED by the fact that it’s all happening and we aren’t prepared. That many of the things I am trying to do to try to get this thing on a good course, I REALLY DO NOT HAVE TIME TO DO.  

I feel like I’m failing constantly.  That I’m going to let down my bosses. That everything is going to go belly up and it will be at least in part, my fault. 

This makes me want to climb in bed and stay there.  Obviously that is NOT a rational response.  

Also, I’m not the sole person responsible for this. 

Also, I am human.  I live in normal time.  I cannot do every goddamn thing. I just feel like I should. 

Well.  I need to let it go.  My boss let it go months ago.  He’s totally chill about the impending chaos.