k r y s ☽

how is it fair that he did this to me and he gets to walk away unscathed, but leaving me with lifelong trauma and the most painful fucking disorder that affects every single fucking aspect of my goddamn life.

how is it fair that he can start over and get into a relationship while i can barely even keep one.

how is it fair that he can keep on living his normal everyday life while leaving me with all of this emotional hell-ish turmoil and self hatred and it’s up to ME to try to get better and heal myself.

how is any of this FUCKING FAIR

i never planned on living this long.

why am i so spiteful, even to the people i know i care about

my account is dying and i feel as though you all hate me

why am i getting worse

as soon as i think i may be getting better, i feel like it just starts up all over again ; it all comes crashing down to the way it was before

girl i was talking to on twitter hasn’t replied back to me in 35 minutes i’m gonna cry then kill myself wtf what did i do wrong i think she hates me

I love when creators reply back to my comments on their posts because I feel so seen and heard and where was that during my childhood

i have just come to the conclusion that i am in desperate need of help.

how do you say “sorry i haven’t been replying i have it in my head that everyone hates me and is irritated with me so i was scared to reach out to you in fear that it’ll make it worse and that you’ll finally cut me off and leave me for good” without actually saying that

no borax no glue no being left friendless

what if, hypothetically ofc, you came over and we cuddled and held each other so close to the point where the only thing we can see, touch, and smell is each other and we fall asleep like that.

hypothetically ofc.

unless you’re down.

if not, yeah it’s def hypothetical idk idc.

I don’t understand the mind of someone who betrays you and treats you like shit when all you’ve ever been was kind to them.

idk about you guys but my parents ATE THIS UP when i was in elementary school

guys i’m telling you, HE’S THE ONE

(we’ve only talked for two days and said a maximum of 25 sentences to each other)

(i’m obsessed with him in every way possible)