how is it fair that he did this to me and he gets to walk away unscathed, but leaving me with lifelong trauma and the most painful fucking disorder that affects every single fucking aspect of my goddamn life.
how is it fair that he can start over and get into a relationship while i can barely even keep one.
how is it fair that he can keep on living his normal everyday life while leaving me with all of this emotional hell-ish turmoil and self hatred and it’s up to ME to try to get better and heal myself.
how is any of this FUCKING FAIR
#ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR#NOT AT ALL#I WANNA KILL MYSELF EVERY FUCKING DAY AND HE JUST#I HATE THIS#WHY COULDNT I HAVE HAD A NORMAL FUCKING CHILDHOOD#WHY COULDNT I HAVE HAD A NORMAL FUCKING FATHER#IM SO TIRED#WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS#bpd blog#borderline personality disorder#actually borderline#relatable posts#bpd thoughts#living with borderline#quiet borderline#bpd rage#borderline rage#bpd splitting#being borderline