# 40 from the # series
I’ve been silent.
I don’t know how to express
the end of things between us
i paint it
and yet,
it still feels tainted.
there aren’t many words to properly express how I feel
while I wish you nothing but healing,
it’s hard to discuss the feeling
with your feelings in mind.
why should I?
when you never seemed
to care about mine
until I told you
I’d be just fine
on my own.
so many times I tried to end things with you,
unsuccessful.
caught up in the wishes,
that you could be different.
Not to say that you
weren’t special to me
at the time...
but you were never mine
and could never be
I realized,
we were like night and morning;
storming thru
another woman’s mistakes
maybe I enjoyed
the idea of the chase
until I didn’t.
you swore it didn’t matter
but as a physic, I heard
the chatter in your heart.
It was only for a moment
I came into your life,
that one summer.
if anything it was
a bummer
being so nice,
to someone I realized
didn’t treat me
the way that I like.
You were only being
who you knew yourself as,
it was me
who couldn’t grasp
who you were
and for that
I,
can do nothing but learn.
✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
P.S IF YOU FUCK WITH ME
ANY BITCH FROM UR PAST
IS DEAD TO YOU NOW.
WHO THE FUCK
DID YOU THINK
YOU WERE DEALING WITH?
I ain’t with that friendly shit. *drops mic*