Quoting @countessrivers tags from a gifset (please tell me if you want me to take this down)
#not the point of this scene#but it reminds me how bullshit it is that the show/characters kept making a big deal about how it was this shameful secret#that lee was attracted to darkness (except the darkness was actually jim)#or else that jim ruined her#when here she is#wanting to stomp around parks in the middle of the night looking for murder weapons#and then shaming/guilting jim for wanting to stay home and eat on his night off#(with some aditional sexist gaslighting over jim being concerned about the safety of the civilian#he’s walking through a poorly lit park in the middle of the night with while on the trail or a murderer)#anyway what i’m trying to say is lee was always weird and always into the morbid#jim didn’t ruin her#(although s1 lee was a lee who loved jim for his drive to do the right thing#and the way he wouldn’t back down from pursuing a criminal#and season 2 lee called him sick for it and couldn’t list a single reason why she was with even when a mourning and struggling jim asked#so….)#gotham#jim gordon#ben mckenzie
Yes! It was so much nonsense. If there’s something that’s actually done well, it’s all the little clues dropped from the outset that Lee has her own hidden depths and darker tastes.
She’s working at Arkham when we meet her, for a start. She says that Jerome’s confession of murder was ‘thrilling’
Lee: It was ugly, but it was also kind of thrilling.
Jim: Thrilling?
Lee: Thrilling and scary. Like… like looking down a deep, dark tunnel.
She switches from Arkham to GCPD. Part of it is to follow Jim - which is a whole thing on its own, but it’s another noticeably ‘dark’ choice of job. She seems to get on with Ed from the outset (we learn that she’s told him he’s free to use the lab).
She slaps a comatose Barbara with real anger. She’s content to sweep the murders of Ogden Barker and Theo under the carpet. She’s not remotely put off by Mario’s mafia family - in fact, she seems a little thrilled, and enjoys wielding it as a threat against Ed.
You could argue that injecting herself with the Tetch virus maybe has to do with a suppressed desire to let her own shadow self out as much as it does guilt over Mario’s death. Equally, she goes off to live in the Narrows out of an instinct for penance, but it’s also a rough, lawless, dark place - the kind of thing that thrills her.
Then there’s her whole relationship with Ed, which actually really worked for me, and has arguably been very slowly built from season one. There’a lot of chemistry there - and a lot of similarity. They have their sweet, slightly geeky science side, and they both have a genuine desire to care for people (GoodEd was outraged by Kristin’s bruises, and impulsively hugs the fired Jim) - bu they both equally share a fascination with darkness and power and murder. That ‘I see you’ in their kiss/kill scene was hugely meaningful.
So - yes - this notion that Jim was Lee’s darkness, or that he somehow ‘made’ her dark, was nonsense, and forgetful of what come before. Lee’s always had her own dark and morbid interests - which is good, and what makes her an interesting character.
I remember reading somewhere that INFPs - idealistic, altruistic, ‘good’ can often have/develop a fascination with darkness and morbid things. It’s a characterisation that suits Lee well, for me.
reblog for great meta (& a bit of show nostalgia) pushy investigative Lee was fun to watch (I mean it lead to following a snake .. ) but the way Lee “handled” unconscious Barbara (2x13) and called her “Bitch” was seriously scary. (I mean after what Barbara did I can´t fault her as a person but as someone that chose a medic profession I do judge her, and it kind of made me glad that her changing and getting into the GCPD doesn´t mean she has patients under her care)