The last few years have just disappeared, wow. It's my 21st birthday tomorrow and its been:
-4 years since I tried to take my life
-4 years since I lost someone important to me
-4 years since I got diagnosed
-4 years since I started recovery
-3 years since I got my drivers licence
-3 years since I finished school
-2 and a half years since I met the love of my life
I got so caught up with life and how fast it was moving that I forgot about this blog, but the positivity that I posted in the past has inspired me to start adding to this page again.
Since I last posted I found out that I most likely have ADHD and am on the Autistic spectrum- I have also discovered and embraced my gender identity and sexuality thanks to my wonderful partner coming out as a trans woman!
Just goes to show, nothing turns out as you expect. But I'm finishing my second year at uni next month, and it sort of hit me that I want to live. For the first time I'm not 'on the fence' about life; I'm genuinely happy. There are things in the past that still hurt me, I still suffer from my mental illnesses of course, and there are things I stress about and fear like everyone does, but I have so many blessings, many of which I have worked hard to get which gives me such a feeling of fulfillment. I want to keep posting to this blog, through future times, good and bad. I hope it can give some comfort to people who were in the same dark place I was only a few years ago.
Anyway, rambling! Take care everyone. Sending so much warmth to those who feel cold right now. ❤