Now Izzie is gone?

K, done with episode 6x12, and all I can say is WHAT THE FLYING FUCK? Izzie Stevens gone JUST like that? All because fucking Alex Karev tells her that HE can do better? Ugh. I despise that man. Don't get me wrong, I was shipping him and Izzie hardcore by the end of season 5, but he's despicable. He was always an ass-face to my boo George, and then ends up treating Izzie like crap. She never once cheated on him, she was just upset because things were going terrible for her. But he has to be the insensitive ass that he is and sleeps with Lexie, and even THEN she was willing to forgive him, she can back to fight for their marriage, but no, he "deserves better" apparently. Well no Karev, you don't deserve better, you deserve shit, and the only reason you ever even behaved somewhat human was because of Izzies patience and love. So GO TO HELL. And I can't believe she's just gone, and nobody even cares or wonders. Hmm, seems very ooc and just fake the way no one even questions it. Bleh, George + Izzie were the best characters on this damn show. I wanted more. I wanted to see their characters grow and develop into wonderful surgeons. I wanted George to get over his insecurities and find love, and I wanted to see how Izzie incorporated her big heart and personal involvement with her profession. :'( P.S: Izzie and Dr. Avery would have made a hot couple.

WHY DID I EVER START WATCHING GREY'S ANATOMY?

           Okay.  Before I say anything, if you're like me and you didn't start watching this show till now or still haven't but plan to, do not READ because it does contain spoilers. (5 year old spoilers that is)

But I finished season 5 two days ago, and I still not over George's death.  I. Am, Still. Not. Over. It.  And when I say I'm not over it, it's not just fangirl talk for "aw, this is so sad", I mean I AM NOT OVER IT.  I mean, my heart literally aches, not figuratively.  I mean, I think about this damn character pretty much all day.  I mean, I can't watch a tribute to his character on Youtube without crying.  I know I am overreacting, he is JUST an actor, and George is JUST a character, but not to me, and my emotions don't understand the difference apparently. 

First of all, he was my favorite character.  Since day one, he was my favorite.  I relate to his awkwardness, sweetness, underdog status, and he's just a sweet heart.  He's so selfless and kind, he freaking died saving someone else's life! And since I have the worst luck, the character that gets killed off has to be my favorite.  It wasn't even gracefully done, they didn't build up to it, he was dragged along by a damn bus for a block.  And what irks me the most, George never found what he was looking for.  He STILL felt like he wasn't enough, he felt like he wasn't good at anything, he had drifted apart from Izzie, Lexie, and even Callie and was just there, alone and sad.  And the writer's decide to just kill him off like that?  It was not fair to the character and the fans of the show.

I will never get over this, and I can't continue watching this amazing show.  It won't be the same without him.  I was reading that TR Knight actually wanted an early termination to his contract, and had a contract for 3 more seasons, so it seems a little fishy to me that he wanted to leave.  He probably didn't feel comfortable in the show, and that makes me ever sadder.  In my honest opinion, if they wanted to do away with the character they should have just sent him to the army, it would have felt a lot better in my head.

I know i'm rambling but WHY!?!? I was in tears because I thought Izzie was the one that was going to die, and I was somewhat prepared to her passing away.  She got the chance to say her goodbyes, talk to her mom, get married and be happy.  So I was okay with her dying.  But instead, they kill George just like that.  He wasn't even in the finale that much.  He didn't say goodbye.  They should have at LEAST had him say his goodbyes when he was gonna join the army and then have him die. 

Grey's Anatomy

watching G.A on netflix and I'm addicted.  Started recently and I'm already half way through the 3rd season.  10 damn seasons though so I have a looooong way to go.

but omg how cute is George O'malley?  He's literally like my fave character because he's just too adorable (even though he's definitively grown as a character and he's nowhere near as shy and awkward anymore but still)

Also, Izzie Stevens is basically me.  She has so many emotions and feelings and like, that's me.  

Bailey aka the nazi is such a sweetheart and i love how hard she tries to hide it

Cristina is an awesome bitch, i love her sarcasm

and Addie, FAVE. what a gorgeous woman please marry me.

okay I pretty much love every character on this damn show...