The Chief and His Cynic

les mis enjoltaire fans will find the worst, grainiest, blinded by stage lights, most corrupted 30 seconds of bootleg on the world wide web and go "THEY HELD HANDS HEREEE"

Hold me in this wild, wild, world 'Cause in your warmth I forget how cold it can be And in your heat I feel how cold it can get Now draw me close

yes, I'm still obsessed with these two✨

Give me Enjolras who is supportive and loving and understanding towards Grantaire, but who is also affected by his boyfriend's addiction because it's hard seeing a loved one like that

Give me Enjolras who will sometimes come crying to Combeferre or Courfeyrac because he hates seeing R so broken and he feels like there's nothing he can do to help

Give me Enjolras who can't sleep on the nights that Grantaire goes out because he's so terrified of something terrible happening to him while he's drunk

Give me Enjolras who is petrified of getting a phone call from the hospital saying that Grantaire is in there

Give me Enjolras who gets so worried he searches every bar in the damn city just so he can get his boyfriend home safe

Give me Enjolras who takes care of Grantaire, who rubs his back when he's throwing up or holds him when he's crying or nurses his frequent hangovers

Give me Enjolras who hates seeing his boyfriend like this because it kills him that Grantaire is in so much pain.

Night Begins to Descend Upon Grantaire

Drawn from reference photo floating somewhere around here (almost a month late to barricade day, but I made it!)

It's arts and crafts time in the Enjoltaire household ! Even Jude is helping !

... somehow.

(Also that's Grantaire's shirt, but it can't be made worse by paint stains.)

As much as I love angst, I cannot get over soft! Enjoltaire

Enjolras who gets up early and is all productive, and then when Grantaire (finally) wakes up Enjolras just hears his familiar whining that the bed's cold and Enjy come here I need a hug

Grantaire is Enjolras's first partner ever and Enj gets so nervous that he's gonna mess something up to the point that Combeferre and Courfeyrac have to be called to calm him down

Grantaire who feels unworthy of Enjolras's love and affection, who is so used to being treated horribly by people (I headcanon that he came from an abusive family and that's why he's an alcoholic and stuff too) that at first he flinches away when Enjolras tries to touch him because he's so used to that meaning he's about to get hurt

Enjolras who finally allows his serious demeanour to crumble around Grantaire because he finally feels safe with him

Enjolras who is so touch starved that he has no idea how to ask to be touched, so he'll eventually come to Grantaire with pleading eyes and just hold out his arms because goddammit he just wants a hug

Enjolras who watches while Grantaire paints because it's cute seeing his boyfriend so focused

Grantaire who calms Enjolras down when he's stressed about work or the cause or anything

Grantaire who drags Enjolras away from his laptop when he's been working all day

Soft Enjoltaire

TW: Alcoholism

Grantaire who started going to parties and stuff from a young age because he didn't want to be at home

Grantaire who slowly discovered that drinking could numb the pain he was feeling

Grantaire who started drinking not only at parties but by himself too

Grantaire who as a teenager saw it as a solution that he could use but could still control

Then it slowly slipped out of his control

Grantaire who drank throughout his teenage years but thought that he could just stop whenever he wanted to

Grantaire who didn't really realise he had a problem until he turned 18 and was suddenly allowed to go to bars and clubs and could buy his own alcohol

He got scared because why couldn't he control it anymore. Why did he actually need alcohol now?

What happened?

Grantaire who gets angry and upset and disgusted at himself because he doesn't want to lash out at anyone else

Grantaire who had hopes and dreams but his parents made him believe he was worthless

Grantaire who eventually went numb

He just didn't care anymore

He didn't care that half of his money was fuelling his addiction, he didn't care if he passed out in street corners or in alleys, because he believed he was worthless

Grantaire who was so close to just ending everything

And then he met Les Amis

And by extension, Enjolras

Enjolras ignited the tiniest bit of hope in him

Enough to keep him alive

Enough to start coming to these meetings regularly

He didn't have the energy to truly believe in the cause, but he couldn't help but believe in Enjolras

If the world could be changed, Enjolras would do it

Fast forward to when they're (finally) dating

Grantaire who is terrified of being a burden on Enjolras

Grantaire who, when he wakes up hungover, instantly looks around for Enjolras and just whispers "I'm sorry" "I'm sorry" over and over because he didn't mean for this to happen, he didn't mean for his life to become a complete trainwreck

Grantaire who hits rock bottom

Who wakes up in the hospital one day with no recollection of what came before

He's informed he has severe alcohol poisoning and there are about twenty people in the waiting room for him

Grantaire who freaks out because oh my god this was never supposed to happen

When Enjolras comes into the room, R breaks down

Terrified that Enjolras is mad, disappointed and will break up with him

Instead, Enjolras comes over, kneels by his bedside, gently clasps his hand

His face is streaked with tears that are still falling, his blonde hair is disheveled and he looks like he hasn't eaten or slept in days

Grantaire feels his heart shatter because this is his fault. It's his fault Enjolras is so upset.

He waits for Enjolras to speak. And, eventually, he does

"R, baby. I love you. I'll always love you. But you need help. You can't keep going on like this."

Grantaire who goes to one session of rehab

Then another

And another

It's not all perfect. Withdrawal fucking sucks. He can't paint for a while because his hands are shaking so badly, he feels sick and tired and awful

But he slowly starts to get better

To actually work through his trauma

And Enjolras is there, by his side, the entire time

Grantaire who gets sober

Grantaire who gets the help he needs

Grantaire who gets better

It is time for us all to decide who we are. LES MISÉRABLES (2012) dir. Tom Hooper

Permets-tu? LES MISÉRABLES (2012) dir. Tom Hooper

i just know that once they figure their shit out and actually get together they’re gonna be so insufferable

something something complementary colors

no one loves light like the blind man

Permets-tu?

My beloved boys for this second (and last) Barricade Day, happy 6th of June!☀️

HAPPY BARRICADE DAYYYYYY *throws this at you*

Happy Barricade Day!

I didn’t have anything prepared (university keeping me busy) so have this very very quick sketch of that Les Mis NL kiss… it kinda looked something like this and I‘m still thinking about it! Still don’t know how I got lucky enough to see this??? Legends these two!

When I have enough time again (probably after the semester ends) I‘m gonna turn this into a real drawing!

Heaven is not fit to house a love like you and I