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Saw something old in one of my dressers that made me think of a certain someone I haven't thought about in a while.. I won't try and justify my actions or try and prove why I have pride in certain situations. But it's honestly a sad thing to think about what two people can can put each other through. Yes you've heart me, yes I felt abandoned and yes it hurt more than you'll ever imagine.. I was never built of stone like I portrayed myself to be. Do I hate you or regret you? Never. You taught me how to love and how to feel loved. The things I regret are the times I should have held you longer, the times I should have opened up to you or the times I denied a kiss or sorry from you when you were sincere and I was angry or annoyed over something petty. I miss the nicknames you've gave me and how you used to say them, the look in your eyes when I said I loved you. You've loved me more than I loved you then, and I love you more than you love or ever loved me now. So what I'm saying is I can't replace you.. Never will, you were my first love and I'll always remember you.