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Going to therapy in a new fit and my stuffed animal. No one can match my confidence in this place. My therapist will throw hands if you make fun of my dog and elaborate outfit.

I got new boots, new roots, and new problems, move it or loose it.

Sing it Nancy!

The radio playing Bye bye bye by NSYNC while leaving therapy in my Honda Odyssey is therapeutic in itself.

I can't make this shit up. This country is whipped.

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Thinking about Wade's Adhd and rejection sensitivity. Getting upset about inconveniences he can't control even when not mentally small, just becoming irationally overly upset over things that don't really affect much.

How he's been talking about a certain sandwitch all day long. Since noon, throughout the entire mission, and now he's yapping about it again on the 6 block walk to said sandwitch joint ran by a small immigrant family.

He keeps talking about how great it is. Logan didn't have this place in his timeline, so Wade is ampled excited to show him. Logan jokes with him how he sounds more excited to eat this sub then he is to suck dick.

Wade, with the most serious face, goes, "I can get dick anytime. They're only open 4 days a week and only from 1 to 5."

Logan notes this in the back of his mind for the future.

Just as they get there, Wade is telling Logan that they used to be open 10-5 but their daughter went to college, so now they are on their own. How these people have been so kind to him and told him that they started this shop for their daughter specifically. To give her a good life, they've been working hard to send her to college since day one.

As they roll up to the door, Wade's face drops. All of the glee and joy from his body evaporates and immediately he's just staring at the sign.

"Sorry, we're closed. Come back -" and then a small plastic clock that shown when they opened again tomorrow at 1 pm.

They're too late.

"Oh... well, that sucks." Logan mutters, hands in his pockets as he watches Wade look so utterly disappointed that even he begins to feel bad for him.

He puts a hand on his shoulder. "We can always come again tomorrow."

COUGH COUGH TotallynotbasedonsomethingthathappenedtometodayCOUGH COUGH

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Mood swings is not the correct term for this seeing as the chemicals in our brain are quite physically being altered.

I often relate it to being given a list and being told that you MUST get it done OR ELSE and you do NOT want to know what or else is- except you can't finish the list because of matters out of your control so you become stressed out and almost feel betrayed.

Its hard to explain but I dont think mood swings would be the correct termology seeing as A. Its not caused by our doing, mood swings are ussually caused by the person being "triggered" by something that makes them upset personally when regularly it wouldn't upset someone.

For example I think about being hangry and getting upset over something that is simple because of that and then immediately becoming happier because the body is fed, making the hormones and chemicals in your brain happy right? This is something that can be changed quickly you know? Or that is unpredictable.

But Rejection sensitivity is ussually caused by other peoples action and we know its ussually irrational. Its our brains being dysregulated because the plan/ routine was disrupted, like when an autistic person cant find their shoe and now are running late, messing up their entire schedule.

I can only explain it as an intense feeling of disappointment, sometimes if caused by someone close to you it will feel personal despite the fact you can mentally think "thats silly to be upset about" but you just... cant stop.

Sometimes it can last hours and makes you feel very isolated and alone, it makes you sometimes have panic attacks too.

The absolute worst thing you could do is make fun of us for it because we KNOW it's stupid but we cant stop being upset. We are upset at ourselves for being upset, so mocking us would make it worse and feel more alone.

Logan does a good job as an example here, figuring out what the main problem is, giving him a bit of space, but not letting him feel alone.

A mood swing (to me) would be if you wanted a cookie but someone ate the last one, getting upset, only to realize there is more, now feeling better because the issue is solved.

With rejection sensitivity, it's like going to the same cookie shop every week to get the same cookie and talk to the same people. A routine. Well you had to stay late for work and now the cookie place is closed. You can still get a different cookie, hell, you can get a cookie that's almost identical, the problem is still not solved. Providing a replacement item sometimes helps but ussually its the routine being disrupted that causes the "break down" not the absence of the cookie.

OR another example is like your partner/parent saying that pizza is for dinner and then you come home to tacos. You still like tacos but your brain is now disrupted because you already mentally prepared for and looked forward to pizza. This makes me very sensitive. Don't tell me you're making pasta at 8 am and then I come home at 8 pm to tacos UNLESS you call me a few hours in advance so I can register it with my mind. God that sounds so pathetic. "Yeah I cry if I get tacos instead of pizza except it actually has nothing to do with the food at all and its the idea of the routine/ list being ruined"

Does that make sense??

I hope this dosn't sound like im scolding anyone or offensive either, but they are definitely different to me.

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Thinking about Wade's Adhd and rejection sensitivity. Getting upset about inconveniences he can't control even when not mentally small, just becoming irationally overly upset over things that don't really affect much.

How he's been talking about a certain sandwitch all day long. Since noon, throughout the entire mission, and now he's yapping about it again on the 6 block walk to said sandwitch joint ran by a small immigrant family.

He keeps talking about how great it is. Logan didn't have this place in his timeline, so Wade is ampled excited to show him. Logan jokes with him how he sounds more excited to eat this sub then he is to suck dick.

Wade, with the most serious face, goes, "I can get dick anytime. They're only open 4 days a week and only from 1 to 5."

Logan notes this in the back of his mind for the future.

Just as they get there, Wade is telling Logan that they used to be open 10-5 but their daughter went to college, so now they are on their own. How these people have been so kind to him and told him that they started this shop for their daughter specifically. To give her a good life, they've been working hard to send her to college since day one.

As they roll up to the door, Wade's face drops. All of the glee and joy from his body evaporates and immediately he's just staring at the sign.

"Sorry, we're closed. Come back -" and then a small plastic clock that shown when they opened again tomorrow at 1 pm.

They're too late.

"Oh... well, that sucks." Logan mutters, hands in his pockets as he watches Wade look so utterly disappointed that even he begins to feel bad for him.

He puts a hand on his shoulder. "We can always come again tomorrow."

COUGH COUGH TotallynotbasedonsomethingthathappenedtometodayCOUGH COUGH

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Thinking about how Charles failed to help Wade and literally went brain dead because of how much chaos is going on in there, one of if not the strongest brains, completely destroyed by how much shit is in there but... There's no charles in Finding Home Au because this universes Charles went out with Logan.

But what if Jean gave him a crack? Jean likes a good challenge and Wade cant keep a therapist to save his life. And Jean owes Logan one sooo....

Why not?

"A-are you sure? Jean you can't-" he glances over to wade across the room. "You can't go in there."

"Ive been in yours."

Logan scoffs. "You think MY head is messy? You don't understand, I've seen his phyc evaluations. One of the testers is in a phycward right now." He whispers through grit teeth, not wanting to bad mouth his husband but...it was the truth. It was a shit show in there. But it was Wade's show none the less.

She rolls her eyes. "Fine. I won't."

With a quick twitch of his nose, Logan glares. "You're lying."

"Yeah. Well what are you going to do about it? Hey Wade? Can you come with me for a second?"

Logan swallows as he watches him jog over, eager to help in what ever way he can. He bit his tounge with his canines. Where's Kurt? He needs a prayer done. For the both of them. In all honesty he wasn't sure which one needed it more.

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