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So, this morning, I got a dinner invitation…well, Thranduil got a dinner invitation. “Hi Aran Wanna Have Funn Then A Little Later Get Sume Lamb Chops Fetticcini Alfredo Broccoli W Warm Buttered Bread Sticks N Sweet Red Wine.”

Hard not to say ‘yes’ when they call you “Aran” which is “King” in Sindarin…but, uh…this is new territory for me…if I didn’t have an appointment today, I literally would ask Lee Pace if anyone asked him to dinner before when he was Thranduil. Then again, that might make this worse if anyone found out.. @mystarlightblr, @storytimeteller1, @lasimo74allmyworld, @fortunatelyclevercandy, @freakingvantastic…weird morning…I’m vegan, so lamb chops are out and I can’t have milk (allergies) or bread (wheat/gluten-free)…so I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. This is weirder than the guys on Instagram thinking I’m a guy. There was that time a couple years ago a girl thought I was Lee Pace–Right: he went incognito as a short black girl to write the life story of his character…makes a whole lot of sense.

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Well, this is going to be a weird day. What can I do?

storytimeteller1

Wow your very lucky to be invited by the King! @iamjaynaemarie

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iamjaynaemarie

I was invited as the King, @storytimeteller1. Scary, isn’t it? Perhaps the other King will come. 😁

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fortunatelyclevercandy

Probably, is what the fan is hoping on, @iamjaynaemarie @storytimeteller1

iamjaynaemarie

What? Hoping for what? @fortunatelyclevercandy oh, if he’s in Puerto Rico, he’s about to get hit with a Cat 5 Hurricane. Poor Lee. Pray for him.

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fortunatelyclevercandy

@iamjaynaemarie I think she is hoping the other King shows up at the dinner but this is impossible because first, you’re not in touch with him. Second, yes he is in Puerto Rico.

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iamjaynaemarie

Well he seems to be safe. I guess we owe a fan a dinner, now. @fortunatelyclevercandy Oh. Goody. Tell anyone I was worried about him, I’ll have Richard Armitage tickle you.

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fortunatelyclevercandy

Oh, don’t you worry no one will know.

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[Except, all your- and my - followers here and on Twitter].

iamjaynaemarie

Touché...Touché, my friend. @fortunatelyclevercandy. You got me there.

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#you know you have some followers #don't you #friend #friendship #confessionsofadecentgirl #Kitty #LOL #:/#😳😳😳😳😳

iamjaynaemarie

It will be a year ago on April 30 that Thranduil said his first words “The journey continues from the edge of time. None can really know all there is.” I found in him myself--the part of me I had forgotten somewhere between doing what I thought I wanted and doing what I needed to do. I got lost trying to prove something to everyone else. I told my family about what happened and it was like talking to air. They do not care. I spent a lifetime trying to make them see me. For every success, they only see my failures. They seem to find comfort when they can say I failed for some reason. Everyone else gets praised for trying and they tell me to do settle for less that I deserve. When they told people I did nothing for nine months and let others talk down to me--they let their friends talk down to me often. I have no one to defend me.

They will ignore me. They wait for me to fall down. I used to just to make them happy. Every time I wanted to give up for them, I couldn’t do it. I wouldn’t do it. Here I am now. They will not look at me. They will not care. They will stay silent. But they cannot deny me this moment. They cannot take this moment away from me. They cannot say I did nothing. This is my time. I never expected to come this far, but I am here now and I am not letting this chance pass me by. You don’t get chances like this every day. I said I had a choice to make. It wasn’t to let this opportunity go. I had to decide to stop trying to get them to see me. I had to let go. It will be hard, I love them. But I can’t give up things for them anymore and without any form of gratitude. I gave up so much for them already. Not this time.

#not this time #this is my time to shine #i will not let it go #i may not have a family #after this #but i need to live #i have been dead inside #far too long #and i just woke up #i will not let opportunity pass me by #not this time i won't #i am here now #i am not a mistake #i love joe #don't you #i love this more #than i fear #anything

iamjaynaemarie

Making his way ever slowly toward you with a look of something undeniably mysterious and unequivocally beautiful. And he will speak to you in a very deep yet, silky smooth voice in a deafening whisper to stir the heart of the ear into which he whispers. And the chosen shall fall to the floor in a faint so deep it will feel like a dream that they wish to never wake.

Oh, Happy Valentine’s Day. That did it for me. And you? I rather enjoy these moments with you. Thranduil is just getting started--oh, he can be most amorous when the moment calls. Why, he just had one today.