I read back my diaries for the last three years and it was just me deciding every two month that I have a new life purpose and it was just different activities like song writing, biology, fashion design etc.
I don't want to be perceived unless it's out of absolute admiration and respect.
I hate tiktok but I want to share snippets of my life ughhh
It's actually a really good thing that i'm pretty, because i'm sure as hell stupid
Tell me what is the most important thing in life in your opinion? Tell me!
30th dec 2020 [ moodboard ]
I feel numb. It's my last day home, and i'm going to live on my own. I feel... relieved. I hate it home. Still I feel a bit scared. I always thought that being home is safe. It sure is, but could be a place safe if you always angry, anxious or depressed? Safe is a place, where you can be happy, and you can be in peace.
It's also raining today, and it's a really beautiful day. The clouds gathering, and it's gray, and dark, and marvelous. I feel still, and I longing for a new life. I want to feel happy, and i want to wake in the morning, looking forward with a positive attitude. I want to write something that makes my heart flutter, and i want to read til 2, and be at ease.
This new life going to be beautiful. I'm truly happy.
Did you ever felt like your life was a big mistake? Like, why am i even here? Shouldn't i be dead by now? I don't think i have a purpose anyways, and just sitting in my room reading, and when i go out, i'm just causing problems with my bare existence
My life is a constant loop of depression, dark academia dreams, reading, and harry potter movies.