I decided to write a multi-chapter Zakkura Aladdin AU on a whim after hearing a song and making up an entire storyline on my way home from work even though I know no one will read it.

Because I’m incapable of making things easy, I also decided to make it a/b/o, despite never writing an a/b/o fic or a m/m sex scene before.

Writing f/m smut is a struggle for me and for some reason I get really embarrassed so imagine my surprise when I start writing the smut and find it easier than writing f/m smut scenes.

While I’m happily typing away about knotting and rimming, the f/m fics I haven’t touched (due to not wanting to write the smut) watch on like:

I want to know what Kunsel would have said to Cloud.

Would he have asked about Zack right away? This makes me think Kunsel and Cloud interacted a lot. (probably because of Zack). The other guys know Cloud too so were their interactions good? Did Cloud talk to them or was he the “weird kid” and that’s why they know him? This also means they all knew Zack, Angeal, and Genesis (probably.)

I need answers.

It’s weird to think people that didn’t play Crisis Core don’t know about them and exactly how much happened before the start of the original FFVII.

All of this fuels so many headcanons and fan fiction scenarios.

I am all caught up on the Given manga and have watched the anime twice. Seeing all the art and stuff is making me sadder than the actual story.

I want Mafuyu to be happy with Ritsuka. Yuki is gone and won’t be coming back and holding on to that guilt and the memories is extremely bad for Mafuyu and he has a chance to move on.

All the fan art I see and comments are hating on Ritsuka and wanting Mafuya with Yuki. Which I understand because of all of the sweet moments shown in the manga especially and how happy Mafuya was most of the time.

It’s just weird that everyone wants his relationship with Ritsuka to end because they want Mafuya to stay committed to Yuki. They want more content with Yuki and it doesn’t make sense to me.

Maybe because I empathize with Mafuya and want him to be happy with his life and what he has instead of him focusing on what he lost.

Mafuya doesn’t want to replace Yuki with Ritsuka. He wants something different but he’s in the same situation again and I’m so sad for him. I reallllllly hope Ritsuka figures it out and fixes things.