i-did reblogged
thinking about how Neil let Andrew do every single one of these things to him without noticing just because Andrew’s a boy and Mary was heteronormative
#if it hadn't been for this loophole I don't think neil would have opened himself up in this way#I think circumstance and sexuality took infatuation off the table for him#so he felt totally clear-eyed and intentional about giving andrew his secrets and letting himself be influenced#except that all the trust and obsession and protective self-sacrifice and desire to be understood was of COURSE love#but by the time he recognizes it he's already inside out. his world is already changed#and his mother was right: he'd die for that new world#<- prev#yeap