you are not beside but within me

hi! this is your gentle reminder to not trigger yourself on purpose. be nicer to yourself, you can do this!

So weird how sometimes I’ll start the day absolutely teeming with hatred and contempt for being alive and then I eat and finish one task and I’ll be cured

Some of my most productive days ever have been when I started out in a hate spiral

i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here

all i wanna do is lie in the sun!!!! read my books!!!! daydream about fictional scenarios!!!!! love without fear of abandonment!!!!!! smell like vanilla!!!!!!! cry over great poetry!!!!! sit on the grass for hours on end!!!!! not care about how others perceive me!!!!!! find god in the smallest of things!!!!! be free of guilt and shame!!!!

one thing about me is i am not doing so well

Carel Willink, 1900-1983, Dutch - Chateau en Espagne, c.1939

Portrait of a woman by Ary Scheffer + Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift

one thing about me is im gonna get a coffee and a pastry

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

people will be like 'do your own research don't trust historians!!' ok see you in the archives then babygirl

the bad news is that my mom was sad that her eggplants haven’t been growing; however, it turns out that the reason her eggplants haven’t been growing is because her eggplants were actually spinach. The good news is that her spinach is growing very well. She was also sad that her peppers haven’t been growing either, but it turns out that the peppers were actually eggplant. And I’m happy to report that the eggplant is also growing very well.

garden at arles by vincent van gogh / “garden song” by phoebe bridgers