Everything Is More Beautiful Because We Are Doomed

i know what kind of god i need to be for you. i know that i have to do this for you. i know what i want and it's you but i'd rather you be safe than mine. i know what i need to do because you told me, because you helped me understand and i will do it, of course i will, for you. i know what my burden is and i will bear it for you. i know you will be angry with me for sacrificing myself but i rather you be angry and alive then dead and silent. be angry with me, let me hear it, i can hear it, i can always hear you, speak to me, say anything, i will hear it and it'll give me hope. i know i need to hold it all together and i won't ever stop, for you. for you. for you. all of it is for you.