To the three bunbuns.
I shouldn’t be ranting but here I am typing away.
Something that is bothering me is how some people I considered to be my friends discarded me just a few hours ago.
I got into Twisted Wonderland about two months ago and made a Discord account to join a server, meet new people and find someone to talk to about my love for the octopunk.
Usually I don’t open up too much because a lot of times I tend to go overboard with my love for my favourite character, people get annoyed and don’t tell me and instead just shut me out.
I did it with a few fandoms before but with Twisted Wonderland I thought “I could give it a try”.
So I joined this Discord server and was overwhelmed with how many different and awesome people were there, how nice everyone was and supportive. It was a good experience and I enjoyed it.
Then something happened and me, two other members of the server and the admin moved to a group chat as a safe space.
The admin reduced their presence in the server, I offered to mod and then did.
Things were going great for the four of us in the group chat and I thought of how blessed I was to have found people who accept me the way I am.
We planned out this whole thing with a dorm filled with our OCs, had little stories and such going on, concepts were being drawn and inspiration was being pulled from everywhere. It was great.
11 days ago I made us a server dedicated to the dorm we created, made channels where we could post and talk about everything and anything.
Everything went great.
Until today the three decided to leave the group chat and leave the server.
I was unfriended on Discord, got blocked there, here, on Whatsapp and Line.
I have no idea what has happened as yesterday we were talking normally.
The last message on Line I received was “Good night! See you later! Love ya ❤️” a picture of Azul and my reply to it.
The last message on Discord was “Goodnight everyone~! See you tomorrow ♥️”
They probably did but I am not in the picture anymore.
I have been crying for hours and try to wrap my head around what has happened and why the sudden departure.
In the end I guess I’ll never know.
But if any of the three might get the idea to check on this blog for any reason…
I’m not mad.
I’m hurt and maybe a little disappointed but I’m not mad.
I had a good time and it was great while it lasted.
I saved some of the conversations we had as they brought me great joy. I might reread them from time to time, I will cherish the good time we had, even if it was just one-sided.
Thank you, I had fun.
Goodbye.
