I'm not quite sure why I stick around on social media anymore. I assume it's a sunken cost fallacy, I feel as though what I share still has value to me even though I'm not quite sure it does. I already don't very actively engage in social media due to the negative effects it has on my health, but why I post remains a mystery to me currently. Maybe I'll figure it out soon.

University is starting coming Monday. This week has been a little strange, it feels like I'm tying up loose ends in a way. Everything is set for my start at university, and while I am excited I am also approaching it with healthy caution. I expect it to be a more pleasant experience than secondary school, but I try not to raise expectations too high.

Fevers are a funny thing. Though I can't say I felt anywhere close to good, surprisingly in my lucid moments I realised it's time to set my priorities right. I felt the need to sedate myself and my mind through media, it felt necessary despite that I know it was very flawed calculus. I have obsessive qualities which I don't doubt are amplified in this day and age, and I want to channel them in more sensible ways. Excessive consumption of media has always been my way of escaping the world, I think I'm ready to stop running.

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