Nothing ever goes as planned. The 17th it will be a year that I lost my best friend, my coping mechanism, my cure all. It has been a ABSOLUTE BITCH of a year.

Imagine how happy I was when my parents (I still live with them) decided to let me get another dog.

So here I am searching the shelters. My friends keep tagging me in posts. I fall in love and then something always goes wrong. I feel like I'm just walking circles. My parents don't agree with me on anything. Not sure why it matters when it will be my dog.

So here I sit, yet again having fallen in love with a dog 45 minutes from me and I'll get my heart crushed again because i can't get there to meet her right now due to work. I think I'm just gonna give up.

I'm so sick of people telling me I'm wrong.

For instance my mom

I tell her "Oh TJ needs to see the vet. He looks thin."

Her "No... he's just old."

That was June. They found his cancer in October.

I tell her "Your cats looking sick."

Her "no he's just wormy."

A few months later we find out he has diabetes.

I tell her "I think Toby is going deaf.

Her "no he's just got selective hearing."

Tonight she's like "I think he's going deaf."

All I want is a crossbred pup.

But everybody is like "Oh we want $650 for him because he's a HyBrId."

*Warning mentions of death-euthanasia*

So... Here is my take on euthanasia of pets...

I use to be on the fence about euthanasia but after watching my dog die... And take about 45 minutes to struggle to take his last breath... I will never not pick euthanasia again. If I would have known it was going to end the way it did I would have put him down the day he fell down the stairs. He was way to loyal to go out the way he did and I regret everything about his passing. Believe me, we tried to get the vet but he was out of town so we couldn't do anything about it, nobody else would touch him. I feel so so guilty... So.. If you can help make it quick and painless... Do it.

Tody (left) Odie (right)

Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong but...

When you're dog can no longer: -go for walks -climb stairs -clean them self -play games like catch -stand up Without pain, then it's time to put them down. That is no way for a dog to live. It's unfair and selfish to keep the dog around. Am I wrong?

Honestly Craving...

-A guy that will text me in the morning and at night -someone to settle me down -someone to laugh with -someone to miss me -someone who will love my horse as much as I do -someone who wants to own a nice piece of land, with a farm house, a couple barns, a dog, some horses and maybe some cows -someone who would fight for me -someone who won't let go -someone who cares -someone who understands

If this doesn't sum up my friends dogs relationship... I don't know what will.